Halley's Comet

Forty Six

BILLIE
February 12
San Diego, California

It's been two days since my mom was admitted to the hospital. Also been two days since I took my emotions out on Halley. She's not talking to me at the moment.

Matter of fact, she isn't even giving me the time of day. When we got back to my place, Halley went to my room and grabbed her things. I tried to stop her and apologize but she told me that I have a lot going on and maybe I just need time to process everything without her.

She used my words against me and I couldn't even be mad at her for it.

So she left but that didn't stop her from checking up on me through Finneas. She thinks I don't know but I do. She would also ask him about mom and make sure she was doing okay. I know she visited her yesterday because the doctor mentioned it.

I feel like shit for yelling at her like that. I just had so many things on my mind at the moment and her bombarding me with questions didn't help.

I talked to Iris and decided it was time to go see Halley and fix things. Apologizing to Halley is always hard as fuck because I hate confrontation especially when Halley looks at me with those angry eyes of hers.

Halley is a simple girl though. She doesn't want to receive gifts as an apology but rather a simple sorry and explanation to why someone did what they did. She doesn't hold grudges either which is something I love about her because that's something I struggle with sometimes.

My relationship with Halley is something I will always love and appreciate more than anything. Halley taught me to not only love her but also love myself. She always makes sure I'm happy before herself. Always bringing a smile onto my face even when I'm sad or mad.

She is like the light in my life and I can't lose her.

I won't lose her.

Knocking on the door, I take a step back and wait for the door to open. I could hear footsteps heading my way before the door peeks open slowly.

"Billie?" Halley appears in front of me and I smile at her nervously. She wore just a shirt and crossed her arms over her chest as she stared at me.

"Hey uh can I come in?"

She didn't respond to my question, instead moved out of the way to allow me to step inside. Walking inside, I was immediately hit with the smell of weed making me smile. Leave it to Halley to hotbox her whole crib like there's no tomorrow.

She shut the door behind me and silently moved past me to head into the living room. I silently followed behind her only to find her sitting down in front of the coffee table that had a bag of weed on it and her ash tray. I noticed her grinder on the couch beside her and a perfectly rolled blunt in her hands.

"What's up?" She asks, not meeting my eyes as she busied herself with lighting the blunt. I sat down on the loveseat and sighed lowly.

"I want to talk about" I paused, watching as she took a hit from the lit blunt before she leaned back on the couch, ghosting. "what happened when we left the hospital." I finished and her eyes met mine for a quick second before she refocused her attention on smoking.

"What about it?" I could tell by her tone that she was still upset about how I acted toward her that night.

She takes a long hit and blows it out of her nose a few seconds later while I try to find the right words to say to her. "I'm sorry for how I acted toward you. I didn't deserve that and I shouldn't have took my pain out on you."

I turn my eyes away from her and looked down at my lap in shame. "I was just so scared about my mom and feeling like I could have lost her that day really shook me up. That doesn't excuse my actions though and I sincerely apologize for how I acted. I know you were only trying to help."

I could feel her gaze on me but I didn't lift my head to look at her. "You pushed me away when I was only trying to help."

"I kn—"

"I wasn't done." She almost snaps making my lips fall close instantly. Her dominating aura was increasing by the second and I could feel her anger towards me. "I understand Maggie being in the hospital was a lot. I'm not trying to belittle or disregard what you may have been feeling at the time." She pauses and takes another hit from the blunt and inhales deeply.

"That still doesn't explain how you snapped on me." Setting the blunt down, she leans forward resting her elbows on her upper thigh. "I'm willing to excuse this because emotions were high that day but if you ever take your anger or pain out on me again, I'm done."

"Halley" Meeting her red eyes, I gulp as I lick my lip. "I truly am sorry." I could sense this isn't the first time someone has done like this to her before by the way she was responding to me. I study her for a moment and nod my head. "I don't ever treat you like that again, I promise you from the bottom of my heart."

She hums in response before grabbing her blunt again. By now the blunt was almost halfway done and I could already tell she was going to roll another after this. When Halley is down or angry, she always smokes to ease herself so I wasn't surprised by her smoking right now.

"Come here" She tells me and I don't hesitate to walk over to her. She takes my hand and pulls me onto her lap as she takes a puff. "I love you but I can't be with someone who can't control their emotions like that especially if I'm not even the person you're upset with."

"I know and I'm sorry."

"Stop saying you're sorry and just..do better next time." She taps my thigh and squeezes it gently before leaning forward to set the blunt down once more.

I nod my head and she sends me a low smile. Her red eyes were very low and by the way she keeps gripping my thigh I know I'm not leaving her place any time soon.

"Can I kiss you?" I ask her in a soft voice not knowing if she was still upset or not with me. She gives me a real smile before nodding her head. I wrap my arm around her shoulders and lean forward to capture her lips in mine.

"I love you too." I whisper against her lips before she deepens the kiss, taking my breath away.