Halley's Comet

Fifteen

September 17
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Silence

The Silence.

I hate when it's silent, especially this kind of silence.

For the past twenty seconds of pure awkward silence, I finally tear my eyes from looking up at the ceiling. I look at Billie only for my breathe to be caught and hitch abruptly.

The softness of it all. The way my eyes immediately closed and my body to slowly relax into the sheets of the bed. My hand lifts up to caress her soft angelic skin and slowly draw her in by her neck. Her lips against mine, oh how much I have dreamed of this.

Never in million years did I think that Billie would be kissing me.

Me?

Her lips tastes just like strawberries and vanilla. Just perfect. I push her back down softly and make my way on top of her, not once breaking the kiss. Her soft hands find my waist to draw me closer.

But unlike what I want, three knocks sound on the door before a older soft voice calls out "Billie. Halley" before another set of three knocks.

Immediately I'm shoved off and thrown off the bed, to the ground. I groan loudly as my head hits the hardwood floor. Billie shoots up and rushes to the door while trying to fix her wrinkly clothes and slightly messy hair.

She opens the door and I see a glimpse of Maggie standing in the hallway. "Where's Halley?" She asks making Billie release a series of stuttering words before she finally tells Maggie that I'm in the bathroom and just gotten out of the shower.

Liar

I sigh lowly and decide to just keep pretending that i'm not on the floor. Did that really just happen? Is this seriously happening right now?

I close my eyes and wait until Billie closes the door. She rushes over to me, kneeling down to the side of the bed. "Are you okay Halley?"she asks me.

Am I okay? Do I look fucking okay

"I'm fine" I sit up and roll my eyes. She looks at me with sorry eyes making me shake my head and move to stand up, only for her to grab my arm.

"I'm sorry about that" She whispers to me, looking into my eyes.

"Which part?"

Silence

She pauses as she stares at me. I search her eyes for an answer before nodding my head slowly. "Of course" I mutter under my breath and stand up from the floor. Billie rushes to her feet and tries to grab my arm once more.

"Halley—" "Don't worry about it Bil. It's fine, we're good" I tell her, not looking at her, and grab my bag; leaving the room.

—

I slept in Finneas' room which sucked. Billie came running to Finneas minutes after I left, crying to him about it. He managed to make up a lie and told her that he would meet her in our room, hers for the time being. He left ten minutes later and didn't come back to almost four in the morning.

He didn't tell me what she said nor did he try to question me. I didn't ask what she said nor mention what happened. He told me that he would sleep on the pull out couch and I slept in the bed.

Of course, I said no to that and made him sleep in the bed. Yeah, Finneas wasn't happy about that but he was too tired to fight me on it. So he laid in the bed and was asleep within minutes.

Me? I didn't sleep, not once.

"Halley" I look at Finneas who stands in the doorway of the bathroom. "It's time for soundcheck. Are you coming?"

I look at the time to see it was close to two now. Damn I been out of it all day.

I shake my head no and turn back to look into the bathroom mirror. He stands there for a moment before leaving with a goodbye.

Sighing, I grab my bag and hotel key before leaving the room.

—

I smile as my best friend answers the face time call with a smile of her own. "Halley!"

"Iris!"

"How are you? How was your day?" She asks excitedly as she moves the phone some until her face appears again.

"Good! I actually got another tat today" I tell her before my phone down and takes my shirt over, leaving just my black sports bra and gray sweatpants. I turn around for her to see and lift my hair up revealing the red butterfly on the back of my neck.

"It's pretty" She tells me making me laugh and turn back around. Then her face changes and she loses her smile. "Halley you only get tats when you're sad or upset about something."

I sigh. Sucks having a best friend who knows you so well.

"Iris I miss you" I say as I set my phone up on the night stand and shift on the bed. She laughs and smiles into the camera.

"I miss you more"

I sigh and look down at my hands. "What's wrong?" She asks me making me sigh once more. "I overreacted about something and I think I might really messed things here"

"Overreacted about what?"

"I kis—" A knock sounds on the door making me pause and look at it. I tell Iris to wait and get up to open the door. Billie stood at the other side of the door, fidgeting with the rings on her fingers.

"Billie?"

"Finneas told me you came back in the room and I didn't know if I should have mom get me another room o-or—"

I shake my head no and grab Billie's hand, pulling inside of the room. "Don't be silly Billie. I'm not going to make you do that"

She stands a few feet away from me and sighs, rubbing her hands on her oversized shirt. "I don't know what to do Halley. What happened was" She pauses and shakes her head, looking at the ground now.

"You pushed me to the floor the minute your mon knocked on that door like you were afraid of someone finding us"

She shakes her head once more. "I'm sorry Halley. I-I don't know what came over me and I wasn't expecting us to kiss"

"And now that it's happened what?" Billie looks at me confused. "What do you mean?"

I stare at her for a moment before shaking my head no. "Was the kiss a mistake?" I ask her lowly.

She pauses. Pauses.

"I don't know"