❛ i don't want to go to go think i'll make it worse,
everything i know brings me back to us. ❜
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❛ cousins felt like a second home to the brooke family, year after year they would return to the same place every summer. but this year felt diff...
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chapter eighteen — the end, no really
The waves rolled in and out as the gulls circled above, the salt air left a bitter taste on my tongue but I never needed anything more. This summer had slipped away into a moment of time, so much for summer love.
I held my knees as the wind blew my hair, Conrad sat next to me in a comfortable silence. This is the quietest my time at Cousins had been and I feel that I could finally reflect on this summer. I had made some shitty choices and mistakes and I know I was wrong for that.
There was nothing I could do to change this summer but I think that was for the best (I at least hope) because maybe things would've been different. Maybe, Conrad and I would never have kissed, maybe I never would've found out about Susannah.
"Livy I'm sorry for being so shitty all summer." He sniffed as he turned to look at me with guilt laced on his face.
"I mean, you were going through all this alone," I moved a loose piece of hair behind his ear, "I wish you had told me sooner so you didn't have to." I sighed as he shuffled backwards a little making me return to my original position.
"I wanted to, so badly, I almost did a couple of times." He mumbled the last part with a scoff making me smirk.
"You know I'm always here if you need me, right Connie?" He nodded furiously as I stood up, dusting off my shorts, "We should head in," I quickly spoke turning to leave as I felt his hand grasp around mine, pulling me back.
"There are so many things I want to say to you." He held both my hands in his own making me blush as the butterflies erupted in my stomach. I felt my excitement flood out my body when I realised this was a bad idea.
We never learn we've been here before.
"I don't think this is a good idea."
"Why?" He questioned without hesitation as he became impatient.
"Cause you really, really, really need somebody right now, and... I don't want to be the kind of person who takes advantage of that." I smirked playfully as I tried to drag him back to the house but he was persistent.
"I don't just need somebody," He pulled me closer, his arms wrapped around my stomach meaning my hands could wrap around his neck as I played with his hair, "I need you." He whispered into my ear, sending shivers down my spine.
"I don't want you to need me, I want you to want me," I whispered, scared of what he would say- no one has ever made me feel this way before.
"Olivia Mae Brooke," I tilted my head as I watched the smirk creep in on his face, "I do want you."
His soft lips crashed on mine as I kissed him back, it felt needy and desperate, I was desperate to feel his lips on mine. I had been waiting for this moment every summer at Cousins but I never would've imagined it to happen.
