Undertale & Deltarune Oneshots

☆Comfort From The Jester- Spamvil

Plot: Drowning in his own depression, Spamton attempts to end his own life, but Jevil won't let him leave so easily

⚠️TW: Suicidal thoughts and actions⚠️

Requested By: Nixxywood

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Spamton was in his and Jevil's room, lying on the floor and staring up at the ceiling. He just felt awful, like his life was crashing down around him. Was it worth it? Was any of this worth living for? Maybe Jevil would be better off without him, maybe he could find someone better than Spamton.

Tears began to pour from his eyes as his thoughts began to race. He just wanted this to end, he wanted it all to end. He's been living like this for so long, and he felt awful when Jevil found out that he was like this when others weren't around. Maybe everyone would be better off without him, maybe he should just end it all. Yeah, that sounds good, at least he wouldn't be like this in death. He could be free.

He stood from the ground and walked to the bathroom, sifting through the medicine cabinet and pulling out a few full bottles before sitting on the floor and leaning against the wall. He had a moment of hesitation. Is this really what he wanted? Could he go through with this? In the end, he managed to convince himself to open the first bottle, pouring a few of the pills into his hand. However, just before he could even put them in his mouth, Jevil opened the door.

Initially, Jevil didn't realize what was happening, only being a little spooked. "Geez, Spam, ya scared me! What are you doing on the fl-" he stopped before he finished the sentence one he realized exactly what was happening. Spamton had pills in his hand with several bottles around him. He quickly rushed over and grabbed the pills from Spamton's hand, shoving them back into the bottle. He grabbed Spamton's shoulders, "what the hell are you doing, Spamton?!"

Tears began to pour from Spamton's eyes as he put his hands up to cover his face. In the end, he couldn't hold back the sobs. "I-im sor-ry, J-Jevil!"

Jevil sighed and got down onto the floor next to him, pulling Spamton into a hug and just allowing him to sob into his shoulder. Normally people would think that Jevil couldn't be serious at times like this due to his small level of insanity, but Jevil actually knew when it was time to be serious and when it wasn't. He didn't dare try to joke at this moment, he didn't think that he even could if he tried. Seeing Spamton like this was just heartbreaking.

"Don't apologize, Spamton, I'm not mad at you. I should've realized that you were hurting like this. I didn't think it would get this bad," Jevil said, slowly rubbing Spamton's back.

They sat on the floor for what seemed like hours before Spamton finally stopped sobbing, but Jevil didn't mind. He was waiting until Spamton pulled away on his own, he would sit there all night if he had to. Eventually, Spamton did pull away, looking up at Jevil with tear streaks on his cheeks. He rubbed his eyes to wipe away the stray tears, and Jevil helped him stand up.

"Go ahead and go to the living room, I'll clean this up and be there in a bit," Jevil said, gently kissing Spamton's forehead before the robot walked away. Jevil didn't take long to clean up the pills, putting them back into the medicine cabinet before heading down to the living room where he saw Spamton lying on the couch just looking defeated. He walked over and Spamton sat up, giving Jevil room to sit down next to him.

Jevil did his best to comfort his boyfriend with cuddles and forehead kisses, but nothing seemed to cheer him up in the slightest. They even watched a whole season of their favorite show, and he still didn't feel better at all. Perhaps it was time for a new tactic.

Spamton currently had his head on Jevil's lap, kind of zoning off into nothingness as Jevil rubbed his head. That was when Jevil got an idea.

"Sit up for me, Spam. I'll be right back," Jevil said, standing up as soon as Spamton lifted his head, only to lay back down as soon as Jevil left.

Jevil walked to their room and grabbed their jackets and shoes, quickly rushing back to the living room. Spamton sat up, a little confused when Jevil threw the items at him.

"What are you planning now, Jevil?" Spamton asked, looking at Jevil with concerned eyes, but with a hint of excitement hiding behind the concern.

"I'm taking you somewhere! Let's go," Jevil said, putting on his own jacket and shoes before pushing Spamton out the door. Jevil began to float off of the ground, reaching his hand out for Spamton to take. "Do you trust me?"

Spamton looked at his hand before slowly taking it, "of course I do."

Jevil smiled and lifted Spamton off of the ground, flying off into a direction high above the ground. Spamton didn't know where they were going, but at the current moment he didn't care. It was distracting him from his thoughts for just a little bit.

It wasn't long before they arrived at their destination, a secret ledge at the top of Card Castle, their favorite spot to go. Jevil looked at Spamton, seeing a smile on Spamton's face. That made Jevil just a little more at ease.

They sat down on the ledge, their feet handing off of it as they looked off into the distance. Spamton smiled and placed his hand on top of Jevil's, causing the jester to look at him.

"Thank you, Jevil," Spamton said.

Jevil smiled widely and placed a kiss on Spamton's forehead. "Anytime, Spam! I can't have my big shot all upset!" Spamton laughed a bit before looking off into the distance again. They were silent for a moment before Jevil spoke again. "Wanna get something from the bake sale after this?"

Spamton leaned against Jevil, "sure."