Give me your forever

Chapter 3 - I'm so lost without you

"But I am. Come with me. It's time to see what's been right under your nose for ages!"

The shooting morning dragged on for the two protagonists of the series. Both, Becky and Freen couldn't hide the deep sadness they felt. They could define this as the worst day of their lives for sure. Nothing worked, especially their scenes, which was a simple scene, but for obvius reasons had to be postponed.

"Let's stop for lunch. And Freen, Becky, I hope you guys manage to find the balance you clearly missed at home today..." said Nattapong a little annoyed and leaving without waiting for a reply.

Both girls just nodded. When they left, Freen tried to talk to Becky, but Nam came after her saying:

"Give her a little space my friend."
"But Nam..."
"No. Wait. Trust me. Come with me."
"But she needs to eat..."
"Only her?"
"I'm not worried with myself..."
"But you should be!"
"Nam, I need to know, I mean, I need to remind her to drink water. Becky never remembers to do that..." Sarocha stated really concerned.
"Okay. I can do that for you, but first we're gonna have a definitive conversation."

The almond-eyed girl nodded defeated.

"Don't worry. I asked Irin to make sure Becky is gonna eat..."
"Irin? Damn it, Nam!"
"What?"

Freen just looked at her friend...

"Oh, I see, you're jealous..."

Before Freen could deny ot, Nam said:

"Don't bother to deny it. Remember, I said we'd have a definitive conversation? That means we're gonna have a heart-to-heart talk! The time has Come, Sarocha! Remember I said I'll help you with Becky? But on condition that you're completely honest with me. You understood?
"Yes..."
"Okay, are you ready?"
"Yeah..."
"Okay, here we go! Freen, I'm gonna ask you just one time and I hope you're completely sincere to me, okay?"
"Allright."
"Great. So, here we go... what do you feel for Becky? And don't you dare to tell me that you see her like a sister, because I won't buy it! I want you to respect my inteligence! There is no more room for lies or even halth-truths. We already reached the point of no return here, do you understand me? I want nothing more than the truth, Freen."

Sarocha took deep breaths and started:

"She's younger..."

And Nam immediately cut her:

"This is bullshit, Freen, and you know that! She's no longer a minor and you know it very well! Besides this has nothing to do with age, you know that too. So, I'll ask one last time: what do you really feel for her, Freen?" This time Nam was more incisive in her question, showing the seriousness of the matter.

The other actress stopped, took a deep breath and started to say:

"Well, I wish I could explain her eyes, and how the sound of her voice gives me butterflies. How her smile makes my heart skip a beat and how everytime I'm with her I feel so fucking complete. I don't even know what to do without her. Anything that isn't with her bores me. I'm able to recognize the tone of her voice even from miles away. I just think about her. I sleep thinking about Becky. I wake up thinking about her. I spend my days thinking about her. Damn, I can't even forget about Becky in my sleep! I was used to be alone, but my heart jumped when Becky arrived. She left me like this, with my feet off  the ground. To renew my being, she really needed to arrive, exactly like that. Without warning me. And you know everything I went through, Nam. You know I was already used to be lonely. So do you remember those walls I built to protect myself?"

The other friend just nodded and Freen continued:

"Well my friend, they're tumbling down, okay!? Since Becky came into my life, they didn't even put up a fight. Becky accelerated my heart, which was already beating slow from looking for someone else to take care of it the way it deserves, because it was so tired from my last shitty relationship. I had already given up on love, but every time she gets close to me, my heart goes crazy with satisfaction, and misses some beats because  he knows that loneliness will no longer be a reality for him. In other words, Nam, Becky fell from the sky, she's a beautiful angel that appeared with those little crystal eyes, and  simply bewitched me. I've never seen anything like that! But suddenly she appeared in front of me with that sparkling light that she emanates wherever she goes.  She's a star in the form of a human being. Not to mention that she's also an invader of the planet love. When she looks at me, touches me, she makes me feel things that I had never felt before. She makes me want things that... aaaaahhhhhh, you want me to confess, Nam? Okay, here we go: I can no longer deny it or hide it or even try to convince myself that this doesn't exist inside my chest. So Yes, I LOVE BECKY IN A WAY I'VE NEVER LOVED ANYONE BEFORE!!! I LOVE HER SO MUCH IT HURTS!!! I LOVE HER BEYOND MY LIMITS, MY STRENGHTS! Are you happy now?" The young actress yelled in complete despair, while the tears fell down her face.

Nam smiled and rushed to hug her friend and tried to calm her down while strocking her back. The older actress let her friend cry until she calmed down.

After Sarocha calmed down, Nam continued:

"You asked me if I'm happy now? Yes, my dear, I am! You finally woke up! Everyone already knows that Freen, you just needed to admit it to yourself."
"Yes... it's a pitty that I had to lose her for good to wake up, isn't it? What's the use of all this now? She doesn't even want to talk to me anymore, because I'm an idiot!"
"Hey, don't say that. You did a shit? Yes! But you didn't lose her. Not yet. I said I will help you and I'll keep my promise!"
"How? Did you listen when I told you I screwed it all up? Becky doesn't want to talk to me. How do you intend to do this?" Freen asked between tears.
"Just trust me, okay?"

Sarocha didn't say anything. She just smiled weak.

"Now, let me play my magic. As for you, don't leave here. I'll fix your shit." And pecking her friend's cheek, Nam went after Rebecca.

As soon as she left Freen's trailer, Nam met Irin outside, waiting for her.

"Thanks God you're here..."
"What's up?"
"Becky refuses to eat..."
"Leave it on me!" Nam said smiling huge.
"How can you smile like that when our friends are suffering like this?"
"Irin, today is an amazing day! I know I'll sound crazy, but trust me, what happened helped a lot!"
"Are you out of your mind? How can all this shit situation help something? How can this be a good thing?"
"Irin, Freen just confessed me... wait. Before I tell you anything, you must promise me you'll keep the secret." Nam's tone was really serious.
"Of course I promise! What is going on?"
"Freen just confessed she's in love with Becky!" The older actress said excited.
"Oh my God, really?" Irin asked jumping like a kid.
"Shhh. Yes. Now I'm gonna talk to Becky and make her see the obvious and after that, we'll be able to help those stubborn finally confessing what they feel for each other. My friend, there is too much love between them to be wasted like this! Now stay ready, because I'm going to talk to Becky and take her to eat, even if it's forceful. But at any time I may need you to help."
"Okay, you can count on me!"
"Oh, one more thing: Freen is dying with jealous of you with Becky. Hahahaha."
"Of me? Nam, that's not funny! Becky is my best friend..."
"Don't worry. This will be your chance to show her that. I need you to keep Sarocha busy as I don't want her to know (yet) that I'm taking Becky to have lunch. Can you do that?"
"Sure! I just hope I'm alive to see the happy end of this story. Hahahaha."
"Hahahaa, don't be stupid. Freen is really kind. She wouldn't do anything to harm you."
"Hahahaa I know that. I'm just kidding."
"But take this opportunity to show her that there is nothing but a great friendship between you and Becky, okay? Tell her how is Becky feeling without her, but don't give so much details, she's already suffering enough, okay?"
"Deal!"
"Now I need to go. We don't have much time..."
"Okay, good lucky."
"Same to you!"