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Chapter 14. - Trouble in Paradise

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Sorry for not posting yesterday but hope you guys will enjoy an almost 6000 words long chapter<3 

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Kris' POV

I heard Tuva mumble something but before i could even ask her what she said, she suddenly raised her voice. 

"Kris, get off!"

As soon as i realized what she was saying i immediately disconnected my hand from her underwear and I lifted my body from hers. She sounded full of panic and angry and hurt, all at the same time. Something was completely wrong, like, really, really wrong.

"Wha - WOAH!" I didn't even get to ask her what was wrong before i fell to the floor.

Tuva rushed out of the bed and paced around the room to find some clothes to cover herself with. What in the mad world had gotten into her? Did i do something wrong? Did i misread her as we were lying in the bed?

I tried my best to remember if i had missed a 'no' or 'stop' somewhere along the way but i hadn't. I really hadn't. Either i didn't hear it or i misread her body language. Had she tried to push me off at any time? Maybe she attempted to close her legs but couldn't because i was in between them?  

"Hey, Tuv - Tuva, i'm sorry, di-did i do something wrong? I-I'm sorry, i didn't mean to force you into anything!" I tried to explain to her as i grabbed my pants and began to put them back on. I'm not gonna lie, i still had quite the hard-on in my pants so it was a bit hard to zip them. 

"Tuva?" I tried again but with no luck. She was in a complete trance. Just starring into nothingness as she was bouncing her knee and tucking at her hair. Usually when she was tucking at her hair she was trying to compose herself into reality by rough stimulation or she was really, really fucking anxious. 

I grabbed my sweater from the floor and pulled it over my head. Tuva was an absolute mess right now, she looked almost as conflicted as i was confused. I walked over to her and she still didn't snap out of her trance-like state.

"Ey, Tuva!" I grabbed her shoulders, making sure she wouldn't go anywhere. She snapped out of her thoughts. Her eyes darted to mine. They were full of panic and despair. She was shaking and i could tell that she was in a total panic. Not that it wasn't obvious. 

I must've crossed line somewhere. I swear, i wouldn't ever consciously hurt her, i wouldn't ever do something that she did not want me to do. Did she think i was trying to force her into something? Did she think i was trying to rape her? 

"Are you okay? I'm really sorry if i -" Before i could finish, Tuva spat me right in the face. As a reflex i closed my eyes and took a step back. I brought a hand to my face and wiped it away. Tuva had actually just spat in my face. This girl who feared bacteria, someone who'd rather get hit by a train than shake the hand of someone who didn't wash their hands, after using the bathroom, actually just spat on me. 

"What the fuck?" I continued to wipe it away. It wasn't because there was a lot of saliva - actually i think a cat could do better - but it was just a natural reaction. 

Tuva was completely quiet. She wasn't talking at all. Was she nonverbal all of a sudden? Was she feeling that strong emotions that she couldn't even speak to me? She normally only went nonverbal when overwhelmed or overstimulated or in distress. I mean, she was clearly in distress, but why? Tuva wasn't exactly making it easy for me to read the situation when she wasn't even saying a single word to me, her only form of communication being the look of sadness in her eyes.