After Effects

Chapter 40. - But You Aren't Mine

A/N

I've fallen in love with the song Cedar by Gracie Abrams so this chapter is inspired by that song. The flirting in this chapter has me giggling and kicking my feet.

Also as a Dane my heart has been shattered after that new tour announcement. Joker Out really just hate Denmark for some reason even though we're just like Sweden but better.

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I didn't know what she was going to say. Whether she was going to be mad, sad, angry, disappointed or completely fine with what happened on stage. Maybe she was going to yell at me for ditching her right before the theater or scold me for leaving her in the middle of the park. Nothin good could be waiting for me, that's for sure.

"You're here." I stated, waiting for her to say something. I didn't really know what she wanted to say. I didn't even know whether or not i expected her to show up to the concert. She seemed pretty against it earlier. Maybe she'd change her mind? Maybe she'd realized that i didn't really have a say in whether or not i wanted to sexualize myself? Maybe she'd realized that the only thing i could do was to go along with it - like i did tonight - or suck it up and make life a whole lot more difficult for me and the band.

"Yeah..." She mumbled while looking at her hands. A moment of silence went by.

"Did you want anything?" I asked since she wasn't talking.

"Yeah..." She mumbled again. She still wasn't looking at me.

"What?" I asked and turned back to the mirror to finish my makeup. I just wanted to finish up in here and get out to the concert. I wasn't interested in more drama tonight. All i wanted to do was dance and let a bit loose, even though it seemed impossible most of the time. I was always on edge. It never seemed like i could catch a break.

"I watched your show."

"I know. You're here, aren't you." I said and grabbed my blush and brush.

"You missed the theater." Sophie said and walked over to me. She didn't take the seat next to me, instead she continued to stand and watched me in the mirror.

"Sorry about that. I'm just not very good with emotions, never have been. I'm sorry that i just left you like that. It was a total bitch move."

"It's okay. The play wasn't even that good anyway. Maybe we could go get a drink and forget about it? I liked your songs, they were pretty good." She shyly smiled. I returned it to her.

"Thank you, that's really nice of you." I smiled at her and grabbed my highlighter.

"So do you wanna go get a drink?" I put down my makeup and turned around to face her.

"...I don't think that's a good idea." I told her and got up from my chair. I took a step closer to her.

"Why not?" Sophie's demeanor immediately changed. Her voice was aggressive and almost sounded mad.

"I don't think i like you like that..." I trailed off, avoiding her eyes by looking into the ground. I felt my hand slightly tug at the roots of hair in the back of my head.

"What?" She almost whispered.

"I just don't think we're good together... You like to travel and i hate it. We don't even speak the same language and there's just a lot of stuff going on all the time with the band and me. I have to do a lot of things all the time and i don't really think i have time for a long distance girlfriend..." I paused. "I just don't think i like you like i should..."