After Effects

Chapter 2 - The first party

I was woken by the alarm on Kris' phone. After around 5 seconds he still hadn't woken up to turn it off so i smacked his chest lightly. 

"Turn off your fucking phone bitch." That seemed to wake him up a little bit and he did as i told him. 

I must have fallen asleep again because suddenly i felt a pillow being smacked in my face. 

"Get the fuck up. You need to get ready for the meet and greet." Kris said, organized as always. I ignored the man and turned my back to him, trying to get some more sleep. My bed was so warm and cozy. It was most certainly one of the better hotel beds i had ever slept in. However the blinds weren't very affective and the sun shines through them. 

Joker Out was gonna have a meet and greet with fans from Barcelona in a park in town. I was honestly kind of surprised that we had enough fans in Barcelona for a meet and greet. After all we're a Slovenian band. Most of them were probably Eurovision fans though. 

"Noooo" i curled up in my duvet, cuddling it. It was so nice and warm. I felt like a little girl in her soft blanket. Just as i felt my eyelids get heavy Kris took a hold of my duvet and ripped it off of me. 

"Hey!" 

"Get up, there's an hour til we have to be there and we need breakfast." Kris said as he dropped the duvet on the floor. 

"You mean you need breakfast. I don't eat breakfast, remember?" It's true, i didn't. I didn't feel hungry so early in the morning, or really until around 15.00 pm. But it wasn't my fault. I literally couldn't tell the difference between hunger and thirst from feeling nauseous. It all felt the same to me. Blame it on my fucked hypothalamus. 

"I'm gonna lie here for another 30 minutes while you go eat." I said and curled up in Kris' duvet. 

"Don't take my duvet!" He said. 

"Don't throw mine on the floor!" I answered. Kris sighed. I didn't need to look at him to know he rolled his eyes at me and left the room to go get breakfast with the others. I wasn't able to fall back asleep so instead i got up. I put on clothes and decided to do a matching makeup look. I've always liked colors, especially blue and pink (it reminded me of Barbie), so i decided to be colorful for the day. By the time i was done i heard Kris walk through the door. 

"Tuva we need to leave now, the others are waiting!" He yelled for me. 

"What? We aren't supposed to leave for another 20 minutes!" I poked my head out of the bathroom. 

"I know but apparently there's a lot of traffic." Kris said. He must have noticed the panicked look on my face because he started to walk towards me with soft eyes. 

"Hey, you okay?" He asked me as he walked over to me. I shut the door and locked it. I didn't want his concern right now, even though he meant well with it. 

No, no, no. This was not the plan. We weren't supposed to leave for another 20 minutes. I needed my 20 minutes. Yes, i was ready, but this wasn't the plan. My hands ran through my hair. I tucked at it to get some harsh stimulation. 

I felt my hands become cold and sweaty. The blood in my veins was suddenly very noticeable to me and i could feel it circle around in my entire body. 

"Tuva are you alright?" Kris knocked. I knew he just wanted to help but he needed to back the fuck off. I could hear my own heartbeat. My right hand automatically started to stim and the other continued to tug at my hair. I tried to collect myself by taking a quick deep breath and started to find my stuff i needed to take with me. 

"Yes!" I yelled a lot louder than i actually needed to. I honestly didn't mean for it to sound so harsh, but i couldn't control my tone right now. My head was at other places. It was at every single item i needed to take with me, the blood in my trembaling body, my coldm sweaty hands and the smell of soap in the bathroom.