DATE: 07/07/2023
Have you ever felt alone? No, I don't mean alone like you don't have people around. I mean alone like you have no one to talk to about what's worrying you. Alone like everyone excludes you no matter where you go. Or alone like everyone judges your behaviour and you either feel constantly observed or completely ignored. Well, I feel that pretty often.
I know, I know, I have to give myself time. Moving to a new city, especially when it's way bigger than the town I come from, is hard. I need to get used to it and all that crap. But will I ever? I seriously don't feel like I belong to this place. Well, actually I also didn't feel like I belonged to my previous "home". But at least there I had a safe spot.
I used to walk down the path to the beach. There, at the little shore, I used to climb the rocks. From the top I could overview the whole place. Up there I felt like I owned the world. That was my place. And sometimes when the waves crushed especially hard against the stones, I climbed down a few meters, so that the sea foam would hit me a bit. People might think I'm crazy, but I just love nature and the sea. My grandma always described me as "ocean child", or as my mom called me: "my little mermaid". I just needed the salted water against my skin and the warm breeze through my hair. That was literally all I needed to be in peace with the world. But now, here in the big city I had no place to go. I know, in my neighbourhood are plenty nice spots but you can't be alone. There's always people around. At least that's what I thought when I first moved here.
After some weeks I found a hidden door at my stair case, which I opened and led me to a roof top. There was no one but me. It was quiet and peaceful. And I could see the whole city skyline. It's definetly not comparable to the shore at my town but at least there is a familiar breeze at night and the stars are beautiful.
So now, from time to time I climb up there to be alone. I know, I said I didn't like to feel alone. But actually, once you feel that way, the only company that comforts you is the silence and the wide view from above. A safe space.
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