Selfish Appetite [5 Seconds of Summer]

[27]

"Heaven knows I should let go, it's nothing that I don't already know."

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Sloan

When you're a kid, you're not so big on change.

You like your school, your friends, your teacher. The extracurricular activities your parents forced on you, but you ended up loving. You are safe. In a bubble created by your parents, to protect you from the ugliness of the world for as long as they can.

You are safe, so you feel safe.

You get comfortable in the routine, even if it upsets you sometimes.

Some days you hate school, and your favorite teacher grounds you, and your best friend steals your favorite pen, your parents don't get you that race car toy you wanted. Sometimes you feel like the world is out to get you, like everything is so unfair.

It's when you first realize things can't always go your way.

It's the first hole pinned in the bubble, but it's so small and unnoticeable, you forget it's there because you still feel safe.

You try to hold on to the bubble.
The safety, the routine.

What happens when the bubble unexpectedly bursts, and you end up face to face with the cruel, cruel world?

Who do you blame?
What do you do when the people who created the bubble aren't there anymore to console you about it bursting?

What happens to you then? How do you navigate life with all of this pain?

*

"Sometimes change is necessary. Change is good. You can't expect everything to stay the same. We need to grow- and sometimes growth means change." Ashton shrugs, downing his beer.

"Yes, I get that and I believe it too. But change is hard, sometimes. You need reassurance and help to go through it. Adapting to change, means having to accept a previous situation has now ceased to exist, or isn't functional anymore. That kind of thing is hard to realize, and it can cause for you to stay put." I point out.

"You suck it up and you go though it Sloan. You can't expect someone to be there and hold your hand. I've seen people chased away from their homes because of war. People who had so much and now have nothing, not even a roof over their heads- and that's the hardest of changes, and no one is looking out for them or holding their hand. If these people can do it alone, so can we." he states.

"You know I can't argue with that- don't you think it's a bit of an extreme example?" I ask.

"No. It's the reality. We worry ourselves with drama, gossip, sex and relationships, whereas other people are struggling to just stay alive."

"He's saying we take things for granted." Calum mumbles.

"Exactly." Ashton nods.

"People, friendships. We take their trust for granted and when something uncomfortable happens, we just cover our asses." Calum goes on.

Luke and I share a glance.

"That wasn't exactly what I was-"

"You open up to someone, you trust them with everything, and then they just abandon you." Calum cuts Ashton off.

"Nobody abandoned you." I state, biting my lip to contain a heavy sigh.

"Didn't you?" he eyes me intensely. "You knew what this break-up did to me. You saw it first hand. Then you find something like this out, and keep it from me? For weeks? What kind of friendship is that?" he husks.