I hate how whenever someone else puts their hands on me, I feel her.
I feel sick at the thought of her touching me again.
All I want is to be able to trust the people around me and to have physical intimacy with my friends, family and any future partners.
But physical touch doesn't feel safe anymore.
She made me feel dirty and worthless for five minutes of her own pleasure. While I'm suffering with a lifetime of grief for my past body and life, and will continue to do so for the rest of my life.
Neither I or my body deserved what happened to us. I don't deserve to feel unsafe in my own body.
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give me back my girlhood
Non-FictionTrigger warning for sexual assault, grooming, mental health issues and suicidal thoughts/attempts This is my vent book about my SA trauma, I use this as one of my coping mechanisms, to help other victims and to bring awareness.
