I can wash myself millions of times until I start to feel 'clean'.
I can start therapy to help myself heal from what you did to me.
I can visit the places you did that to me and make new, happy memories there.
I can let new people touch me without getting flashbacks to you SA'ing me.
I can sit next to people on the bus without having anxiety attacks.
I can feel comfortable in my body, knowing in 2 years, you won't be there.
I can carry on with my life, without getting myself justice.
You can carry on with your life, without any consequences.
But I'll always know what you did to me.
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give me back my girlhood
Non-FictionTrigger warning for sexual assault, grooming, mental health issues and suicidal thoughts/attempts This is my vent book about my SA trauma, I use this as one of my coping mechanisms, to help other victims and to bring awareness.