The Black Phone Imagines/Prefences/Head Canons etc.

Depression -b.s

(billys pov)

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I was walking, on my way to my girlfriend, y/ns house. she lived only a couple blocks down from my house so it wasn't too far. she has been acting differently lately. her carefree and hyper self was faded away. she was only quiet and stayed in her bed for the whole day.

her parents were usually not there in the house because of work and their traveling, but y/n claims she's fine with that. I always feel bad though because she's always alone and that's why I go to her house, to visit her and keep her company.

I had finally gotten to her house and went in her house, unlocking it with the emergency key that was under the door mat. I went directly upstairs and knocked first before going in.

I heard a faint and kinda raspy "come in" and opened the door to enter her room. when I entered I saw y/n laying on her bed, with the blankets over her, with her back towards me.

"hey sweetheart, what's wrong? are you alright?" I asked, sounding worried. I got no response from her so I closed her door and sat on her bed. I put my hand on her shoulder, in a comforting way, and asked her what was wrong.

"y/n, what's wrong? please tell me. I don't want you feeling hurt like this." I said. I noticed that she had started to cry. I laid down next to her and cuddled her. she cried more and turned over, crying into my chest.

it made me tear up that y/n was like this. I hated seeing her cry because I thought I either hurt her or I wasn't there for her when she needed me.

we stayed in that position for about 8 minutes until I decided to try and see if she would talk to me.

"y/n, love, please tell me what's the matter. I want to help you." I told her looking down at her. her face was filled with tear stains and her eyes were red.

"um...i-ive been feeling sad lately..and I thought it would go away, but it wouldn't. I've been feeling this way for about 5 months...my mom took me to the doctors and they said I have symptoms of depression.." she said, letting a few tears escape her eyes.

that shocked me to my core. y/n? depressed? hoe come I didn't know? why didn't she tell me? am I not trustworthy to her?"

she was looking down, so I grabbed her chin with my thumb and index finger, and made her look up at me. "y/n, I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you. why didn't you tell me? I could've helped you get through it. I-I feel absolutely ashamed of myself for not helping you. I should've known." I said, tearing up.

"no, no, it's not your fault Billy. your right, I should've told you, but I thought you wouldn't take it seriously and would worry about me." she said, also starting to tear up.

gee. she thought I wouldn't take it seriously? what does she mean by that? am I joking around right now?

I made a face, then quickly realized and took it of, since I didn't want to get into a fight with her, especially right now.

"y/n, this is something important and something I want to help you with. not to goof around with you and make you feel uncomfortable. that's not what I want at all. I care for you and I love you, and I hate to see you cry like this. It breaks my heart. but I will always be here for you and make sure your okay." I told her, cupping her cheeks.

she smiled at me, and snuggled back into my chest. "thank you, Billy." I heard her say. I hugged her even more and kissed the top of her head.

I love y/n with all my heart, and I'll try to be there for her as much as possible...

~~~~~~~~~~~A/N~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

seems kinda short. I'm so sorry for not updating in a while. ive been feeling depressed lately and really tired of life at this point. so many shit has happened but I have to keep it all in and put a smile on my face, just to tell ppl that I'm "okay" I'm sorry I'm kinda venting but this is the only place I can actually express how I feel. honestly, I wish life wasn't so damn hard and not filled with toxic people. I cried too much today, but now I have to do this all again tomorrow. this story was pretty shitty in my opinion so sorry about that. Idk when I'll post again but I have like 2 or 3 drafts that I can't continue bc of the state I'm in and bc idk what else to write. anyways have a good day/night.

-dels 🌓