the team doctor || bucky barnes (EDITING IN PROGRESS)

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ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ ꜱᴏɴɢ: ᴋɪꜱꜱ ɪᴛ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ - ʀɪʜᴀɴɴᴀ

"𝗜 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗜, 𝗜'𝗺 𝗵𝗼𝗺𝗲."

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VALERIE PACED BACK AND FORTH.

Tony's words cut everyone's training short. They all had stopped their sessions, quietly going to their respective apartments. Valerie and Bucky had awkwardly said 'goodnight' to each other, but now, it was midnight and she couldn't bring herself to sleep. Something was different about this mission, she could feel it. She thought they all did too.

Bucky was in his apartment, also not sleeping. He had a million things he wanted to say to Valerie. Just in case tomorrow was his last chance. He knew what they were walking into tomorrow, and knew there was a chance he might not walk back out.

She didn't want him to go on the mission without talking to him first. She wasn't really sure about what, but she didn't like where they were at. After another minute of pacing, she decided to go over there. She threw on a cardigan, flinging open her front door.

And there he was, on the other side, with his hand raised about to knock.

Her breath hitched in her throat. His mouth slightly opened as his hand fell to his side. He looked slightly disheveled as if he had been tossing and turning.

"I'm sorry," He whispered.

"Me too,"

"I should've supported you," He slowly walked forward, causing her to back up.

The door slowly shut behind him.

"I should've trusted you," She replied.

"I was scared," He confessed. "Of anything happening to you. If something happened because I didn't say anything to Tony--I would never have forgiven myself. I can't lose you,"

"I don't want you to lose me,"

His hands crept to her face, softly cupping her cheeks as he gazed into her eyes. She looked up at him through her thick lashes, neck craned from their height difference.

"Valerie," He breathed. "You've become my escape. From everything. I look at you and, I,"

Her heart was beating so hard she thought it would escape her chest. She blinked rapidly, his words enveloping her entire existence.

"I'm home," He whispered.

"Bucky--" She murmured, but he cut her off.

"I'm not finished."

He gently kissed her, their lips meeting after what felt like an eternity since the last time, molding together like clay. He slowly backed them up, grabbing her hips and leading them to her room.

Their lips only parted for her to fall back onto her fluffy comforter. His hands traveled up the sheets to rest beside both her shoulders, lowering himself back down to capture her lips once again. Her fingers danced up his neck and into his thick hair, softly grasping at the strands. She gasped as his hands hooked around the hem of her sleep shorts, slowly pulling them off.

He slowly pulled each leg down, followed by delicately gathering the fabric of her underwear down with them. Her eyes fluttered close as she heard the quiet snapping of his belt buckle coming undone, opening them back up as his face hovered over hers.

Their eyes locked intensely as he slowly entered her. He sighed with pleasure as he felt her warmth cover him entirely.

"You're everything," He whispered, pulling back out slowly. "To me,"

She nodded, tears welling in her eyes at the satisfaction of both what was happening and what he was finally saying.

He grazed her bud with his tip, teasing her expertly. She tilted her head back at the contact as she began to swell with need. He dipped down to grab her skin with his teeth, softly sucking on her flesh. He slid back in, beginning to slowly quicken his pace as he began to breathe harder.

"Bucky," She moaned. "You're everything to me too,"

Her words caused his heart to soar, expressing this by going faster. He captured her lips, hastily kissing her in response. He kept pulling away to look into her eyes, taking in every part of her as if she was going to be gone tomorrow.

She wrapped her legs around his torso, pushing him deeper inside her. Her lips were parted as sweat began to fall down her forehead. He thrusted harder, his length hitting the back of her entrance.

"Please, Bucky," She cried.

He groaned, pleasure shooting up his spine. He felt her folds tighten as he pushed in and out, the wetness between them growing rapidly. She arched her back as she climaxed, ignoring the instinct to close her eyes so she could watch him close her. His eyes pierced into her as he finished, both of them reaching euphoria together intimately.

His rhythm slowed down, still sliding into her, not wanting this moment to end. As they both came down from their high, he finally pulled out of her.

Before she could catch her breath, he pulled her into him, wrapping his strong arms around her small frame.

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An hour passed as they lay in each other's arms. She had changed back into her pajamas, leaving him in just sweatpants.

"I'm sorry," He whispered. "For how I treated you,"

"It's okay,"

"It's not. I just, I didn't know how to talk to you. You were the most beautiful woman I'd ever seen. I didn't want you to see how fucked up I am,"

"Bucky," She sat up, still holding his hand. "You're a victim. You've been through so much, I don't blame you for not wanting to let me in."

"I knew I would end up hurting you. I didn't want to hurt you."

She smiled. "You didn't,"

"That's debatable,"

She chuckled. He stared up at her, taking in her beauty. He could tell you how many times she blinked every minute, how her breath quickened and fell when she was upset, and how she blushed when he spoke her name.

"I'm so messed up," He murmured. "But you've helped me in ways you don't even understand."

"They made you a weapon," She stroked his hair. "And told you to find peace. How could you?"

His eyes pricked with tears at her words. He kissed her hand softly, closing his eyes. He never thought he'd meet someone who understood him so well. He only dreamed of a woman like her.

"You should get some sleep," She whispered. "For tomorrow."

"Tomorrow," The word hung in the air like a force between them.

"Everything will be okay."

"I can't leave you not knowing if you're safe or not,"

"I'll be just fine, Bucky. And so will you."

She scooted back down into his arms, letting him envelop her. He squeezed his arms around her hips, nestling his head into the curve of her neck.

"I hope so."

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i found the quote she said from a poem on tiktok and i instantly thought of bucky :')