Where did we go wrong?

Part 6

"Alexander"

"Don't Alexander me," Alec's angry voice came through the receiver.

"I'm sorry."

"How many times do you think you said that, Magnus? 2 times, 3 times, or wait 100 times.

"I'm sorry," Magnus whined.

"We waited more than an hour for you. You should have called us at least."

"I.."

"You are only thinking about Camille. You don't even care about us anymore, Magnus. You don't give a shit about us. Do you? All your mind is filled with Camille. I'm okay you been with her but you and I both know she is a bitch. She won't ever give what you expect from her. Magnus, she doesn't love you." Alec crossed the line at that point.

"What do you know about love Alec?" Magnus's voice began to increase.

"You don't know a damn thing about love. Have you ever been in love with someone? Huh? Have you? Something just snapped. He had been played around by Camille. His friends always try to give him advises about Camille and his parents started scolding him about his poor results at school and he just could not contain his anger anymore. He was angry at his friends, his Camille, his Alexander and more than anything he was angry at himself. He knew he was running after a mirage, but he just could not stop himself, he was going to run after it till, he could not run anymore.

No, you know nothing about love Alec. God, you cant even accept the fact that you are gay so how the fuck would you know anything about love. Don't talk bad about Camille. She is my problem. Yes, I forgot to call you, but I don't deserve to be called all kind of things because of that. I thought you before anyone would understand me but of course, you don't" Magnus could feel his eyes getting clouded.

Magnus took a deep breath to try calm himself and it seemed to do the trick. Magnus focused on his breathing for few seconds and after a long pause he released it was too quiet. Magnus was waiting for Alec to get angry at him and shout at him, but he could hear only Alec's breathing sound.

'Did I say something wrong' Magnus wondered.

"Shit" Magnus said when he remembered what he said about Alec being gay, Alec poured his heart out in front of Magnus when Alec first confessed to Magnus that he is gay. Alec trusted his deepest, darkest secret with Magnus, but the second Magnus got angry, he threw that in Alec's face.

"Alexander. I'm sorry. I dont know what came over me. I did not mean what I said. " Magnuss voice trembled as he apologized, but he was too late. Alec hanged up. Alec has never hanged up on him, but today, thanks to Magnus's lousy mouth, Alec was angry, and Alec hanged up on him.

"Shit shit shit," Magnus cursed. Magnus felt like it was getting difficult to breathe, and his chest started feeling tight. Magnus did not care about what others thought of him, but Alexander was different. Magnus could not bear the thought of Alec being angry with him. Magnus had to make this right. He had to talk to Alec. He felt like his chest was getting tighter by the second, and if he stayed in his room one more second, he felt he would start hyperventilating. Magnus bumped into his father as soon as he left the room.

"Young man, what is the rush?"Pop, I made Alexander angry; I need to talk to him. I have to go.

" As if it is something new." Asmodeus smiled as he walked past his son.

"Papa," Magnus protested.

"Go and apologize. Also. Clean your room once you get back."

"What?"

"Now go,"

"Oh okay." Magnus ran from his house to Lightwood house. But he didn't have to go all the way to Lightwood house because Alec walked out from his house.

"ALEXANDER," Magnus shouted with all his might when he saw Alec's back. Alec heard him. He clearly heard Magnus because he halted for a second, but then Alec started walking again without looking back. He was walking away from Magnus as quickly as he could.

"Wait up. Please, " Magnus ran to Alec's side.

"Alexander, wait," Magnus grabbed by Alec's wrist.

"Don't touch me," Alec slapped Magnuss hand away. Magnuss hand stinged a bit, but all that pain was overpowered by what he saw. Alec was trying his best to avoid Magnuss eyes, but Magnus could clearly see that Alecs eyes were red and swollen. Magnuss felt as if his heart was getting crushed by the guilty feeling.

"Ohhh Alexander, what did I do to you? Magnus finally held Alecs hand, and this time Alec did not protest, but he was still avoiding any eye contact.

I'm sorry, Alexander. Please, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. Please, " Magnus started begging as his heartache got worse by every second that Alec avoided eye contact.

"I trusted you with my biggest secret, and you insulted me for who I am as soon as you got a chance. Even looking at you is painful now. Go, Magnus. I need space.

"Alexander," Magnus tightened the grip around Alecs hand.

"Please. Listen to me. " Alec looked defeated. Magnus wanted to beat himself so much for making Alec a mess like this.

"Please listen to me,"

Alec halted. He was too tired to fight and walk away from Magnus, and a part of his heart told him that Magnus needed a chance to explain himself. Magnus saw Alec's hesitation.

"Come with me," Magnus pulled from Alec's hand and guided him to somewhere Alec and Magnus are so familiar with.

There was this hidden grass patch close to Lightwood house. It had a few big rocks on the patch, and this grass patch was hidden from outside because of the thick bushes around it. Magnus found this place when he was 7, and since then, that place has become his and Alec's place. They used to have secret tea parties when they were younger, and as they grew up, two of them would bring their books or their comics and read those while listening to music. They also would sneak in some snacks just for two of them. It was their place, and no one else was allowed there.

No matter how hurt Alec was, when he saw their place, a smile came to his lips. Magnus saw it as a big achievement. Alec sat on one of the big rocks, and Magnus sat next to Alec. Both were not in a hurry to talk. They just stayed like that. Magnus held Alec's hand softly and brushed his thumb over Alecs hand. This always comforted Alec.

"I'm sorry, Alexander." Magnus's voice was barely a whisper. Alec looked at Magnus and then again looked away.

"I was such a dick. I don't know what overtook me. I... I just... I'm such a pathetic loser. " Little by little, his grip on Alec's hand tightened. He meant every single word he said, and his voice started trembling.

Alec looked at Magnus again when he realized the difference in Magnuss voice. He knew Magnus was a second away from crying. Alec hated to see Magnus crying, and the thing he hated most in the world was to see Magnus crying because of him.

"Don't cry." Alec's voice was barely there. Magnus could not help but smile as even after hurting his that much, Alec was still more concerned about Magnus.

"I'm not crying." Magnus tried his best to smile while looking into Alec's eyes.

"You are." Alec wiped a tear drop from Magnus's cheek. Magnus didn't even realize he had a tear drop on his face.

"I hate seeing you cry, princess."

"I know. Sorry, I won't cry. I am just so ashamed of myself. I did not mean what I said, Alexander. I never wanted to hurt you. I... I justI am sorry. Magnus looked down as he sniffled.

Will you forgive me?" Magnus looked at Alecs hazel colour eyes.

"I already forgave you, Magnus." Alec opened his arms for a hug, and Magnus happily hugged Alec back.

"You are the best, Alexander." Magnus tightly hugged Alec. A small smile came to Alec's lips.