wildest dreams | b.e

Abandoned | 013

Alana's POV

So, it's official. Brooklyn hates Billie.

Not surprised.

I'm just trying to keep my work relationship and my real relationship separate right now.

Yesterday..

"Lana, I don't want her around! She's not good for you." Brooklyn says immediately after Billie leaves.

"Brook, it's just for work, that's all. You know how important my music career is to me. I can't have that ruined." I tell her.

"Just keep a distance between you two. I think she has a thing for you or something." She says.

I laugh and shake my head. "Billie Eilish? Having feelings for me? Not a single chance. You have nothing to worry about, babe" I reassure Brooklyn.

"Fine. I just don't want to lose you. I love you, you know." She says.

"I love you too. We're gonna be okay." I smile and lean in to kiss her softly.

Today..

Billie and I are hanging out right now and we're about to go out to eat so the paparazzi can see us.

"Yo, Alana, can you hurry up? I'm hungry." Billie calls out to me from the living room while I'm finishing getting ready.

"Yeah, one sec!" I shout back.

I finish curling my hair and I walk out of my room, putting my rings on as I walk.

"You should curl your hair more, it's cute." She says.

"Oh, thanks." I give her a small smile and she nods.

"Alright, well, you ready to go?" She asks as she stands up, walking to the door.

Before I can answer, my phone starts to ring and I see it's my dad calling. "Hold on a minute." I say to her and she says okay.

"Hello?" I say, picking up the phone. My dad and I aren't particularly the closest, but he's really all I have and he's a great dad

"Hey, kiddo. How's it going?" He asks.

"It's good. What's up?" I ask him.

"Look, I saw all of the stuff in the news about you cheating and what not, but I know that's not you. Tell me about the girl." Dad says.

I sigh and tell him all about Brooklyn, including how she's alright with me and Billie's fake relationship.

"Lana, I don't think this is a good idea. You don't wanna wreck your career." He says.

"Dad, it's fine." I groan.

"No, Alana, this could've really messed things up for you. I want you to end things with her." My dad tells me.

"Dad, that's not your decision!" I shout.

"Alana, don't do this. You're going to ruin your career. Please, just stick with Billie. It's what I want for you.." He starts and I sigh.

"It's what your mother would've wa~"

"No, don't fucking bring her up. She has no decision on what happens in my life because she isn't even in it!" I shout through the phone before hanging up on him.

Tears start to sting my eyes, but I remember Billie's there, so I blink them back and look away from her.

The room sits in silence for a few seconds before Billie speaks up. "Um, are you okay?" She asks.

"No." I answer.

"Can I ask what happened?" She says.

"My dad brought up my mom and she's not in my life anymore and I can't fucking handle him talking about her like she still is when she's not." I say, sighing into my hands.

"She... died..?" Billie asks in a confused tone.

"No, Billie. She fucking left when I was 10." I huff.

"Oh, I'm so sorry, Alana. I didn't know." She says, sympathy lingering in her voice.

"Yeah, of course you didn't! You couldn't bother to be a decent fucking person and not have my girlfriend cheat on me with you while you knew we were dating and then you had to start being a bitch to me afterwards when you had no fucking right! Just get the fuck out." I snap at her.

"Alana, I~"

"No, Billie, leave!" I shout.

"Alana, please just listen." She pleads.

"No, I want you to go." I say coldly.

"You know what, fine. I don't even wanna fucking be here anyways." Billie shouts back, her voice cracking as she ends her sentence.

Did I make her upset? Or.. cry?

She grabs her keys and phone before walking out of my apartment and slamming the door.

"Fuck, why does my life have to be so fucking terrible all the time?" I say to myself out loud.

I shouldn't have yelled. I should've just kept it together. What's wrong with me?

Maybe I should apologize.

No, she doesn't deserve one. I'm still mad.

No, I should.

No.

Ugh, why does everything have to be so difficult?

holly speaks 🫶🏻

i'm with my bsf rn so i'm not sure if the other story will get updated tonight but i'll try! i hope y'all enjoyed this chapter even tho it was lowkey really rushed

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