What was I thinking? | 026

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                                  Alana's POV

I woke up in the morning to see Billie sleeping next to me and we're both fucking naked. I was praying I dreamt the whole thing, but I guess I was wrong.

I quietly get up and slip shorts and a hoodie on and I run to the guest bathroom with my phone.

I sit down on the toilet lid and start calling Olivia.

"C'mon, c'mon, pick up, Liv." I mumble to myself.

After a few rings, she answers. "Hey, what's up?"

"Liv, I did something. I did something really stupid and bad." I sigh.

"Okay, I'm not a fucking mind reader. I need context." She says.

"I slept with Billie." I slap my hand over my mouth after I comprehend what I just said.

"You what?" She gasps. "Alana, are you fucking dumb?"

"Liv, you're the one who wants me and Billie to get together!" I whisper yell into the phone.

"Yeah, but you have a girlfriend!" She groans.

"No, I broke up with Brooklyn." I tell her.

"You seriously need to update me on this shit sooner! Thank God." She sighs of relief.

"I don't know what to do, Liv. I don't think I can date Billie, but how is it going to be normal again after we literally fucked?" I roll my eyes. "God, I'm so dumb."

"Who said anything about dating Billie?" She asks.

"Um, you did." I say.

"Yeah, but not right now! You like her, don't you?" She says and I can just tell she has a smirk on her face.

"No, it's just- don't people normally talk about dating after they hook up? Like, people who've had tension and shit?" I ask her.

"I mean, I guess. But you don't need to date her if you don't want to. As a romance book expertise, normally the two characters with tension that hate each other have sex just to get rid of the tension and don't always end up dating afterwards. Normally something big happens after that." She says.

"Liv, I love you, but this is not a romance book." I sigh.

"Right, sorry. But with this whole trope thing you have going, it sounds about right." Olivia says.

"Livie, I don't know what to do! I literally woke up next to her and ran into the bathroom to call you because I'm freaking the fuck out!" I whisper yell.

"Wait, she slept in your bed?" She asks.

"Yeah..?" I furrow my eyebrows.

"Dear God, Alana." She sighs. "Okay, my advice is talk it out with her when you're ready and take it slow if you do end up wanting something with her. Or maybe just be friends with benefits? Or just friends? I don't know, one of those." She tells me.

"Okay, I'll try." I nod.

"Alright, call me when you have an update because this is literally what I'm living for now." She says and I laugh.

"Okay, thanks, Liv. Love you." I tell her.

"Love you, too." She replies and we hang up.

I swear to God, I'm gonna hyperventilate.

I take a deep breath and open the door to go out of the bathroom when I see Billie walking down the hallway. "Fuck!" I jump as I see her and she laughs.

"Sorry, did I scare you?" She asks.

"Yeah, just on edge." I laugh nervously and walk into the living room.

"Are you okay?" She asks as she follows me into the living room.

"I'm fine." I nod.

"You don't seem fine." She tilts her head.

"I'm just stressed out right now, Billie. That's all." I sigh.

"It's cause of last night, isn't it?" She asks.

I hesitantly nod and she sits down next to me on the couch. "I'm sorry, Alana. I shouldn't have done that. I literally broke up your relationship and that was a big mistake. I'm so sorry." She tells me.

"No, it's okay. Honestly, I was starting to see what everyone meant about Brooklyn and I couldn't take it anymore. I just feel like it's gonna be awkward between us now." I tell her.

"I get that, but it doesn't have to be. We can just put it behind us if you want." She says.

"Billie, I do feel like there's something between us, but I don't know how much more I could have with you, you know? Just with all that's happened in the past and everything. But I'm willing to try and have something and take it slow." I say.

"Yeah, I get that. We could just be friends with benefits and nothing more than that, and if we want more, then we can try it." She suggests.

"Okay." I nod and give her a small smile.

"I mean, we low-key have to because of our fake relationship." She laughs.

"True." I shrug.

This is a lot to think about.

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conangray hmmm
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billieeilish our fits are the best 🙏
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user_3 so cute

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alana_updates we've missed the billie content 🤍

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user49 is this weird to yall or is it just me

56_user Your relationship confuses me on the daily






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okay bye now love u 🙃

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