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                                   Billie's POV

iMessage:

                                        lani 😸

hey

can i come over

it's kinda important

                                       yeah ofc is everything okay?

yeah

i'll see you in 20? is that
okay?

                                                                           perfect

see you soon bil

                                                                          okay :))

Irl:

Alana has been calling me Bil instead of Billie recently and that makes me really happy. It makes me feel.. closer to her.

That's besides the point. I don't know what she wants to talk about, but I'm nervous. I get off my bed and start pacing around. What if she's telling me I need to leave her alone because of her girlfriend? Or what if she's mad at me for something?

No, those are stupid reasons. She probably just wants to talk about us being.. friends again?

I'd like that a lot, honestly.

But I want more.

I haven't seen Alana since she was at the hospital with me and that was 4 days ago. Since then, she's been kind of distant and quiet. I mean, it's not like we're best friends who always talk or some shit, but you know what I mean.

I've been thinking about Alana so much that she's literally the only thought in my brain. All I'm thinking about is how much I love her. Now that I've accepted it, it's like I can't stop. I just want her all to myself.

But I know that's not possible. She has a girlfriend that she's happy with and I have to respect that.

I don't want to, but I'll always wait for her. It's Alana. I'd wait for her for years.

                                              ~

I hear a knock on the door about 20 minutes later, like expected, and I assume it's Alana.

I open the door and normally the Alana I know has a smile on her face or that rbf that intimidates the shit out of me, but she just looks so.. tired.

Like mentally exhausted.

She doesn't say anything, she just hugs me out of nowhere. I furrow my eyebrows in confusion, but I hug her back. I pull her inside with me, still hugging her and I shut the door.

"Um, Alana? Are you okay?" I ask.

She shakes her head and looks up at me with her eyes that are usually filled with happiness, but this time, they're filled with hurt.

"Uh, m-my girlfriend.. cheated on me." Her lip quivers as she speaks and my heart sinks.

"Oh, Lani.." I frown and hug her again, tighter this time. I sit her down on the couch with me, holding her tightly.

"Why does everyone leave or hurt me?" She starts crying into my arms.

That just broke my fucking heart, man.

"Alana, look around. I'm the only one who hasn't walked out on you. I'm right here. I've always been right here." I tell her. "I'm not going anywhere, okay? I'd never hurt you. Not like Chloe, not like Brooklyn, and not like Malia. I would never do that to you."