wildest dreams | b.e

Take her home | 047

                                   Billie's POV

"Finneas, I'm nervous as fuck." I tell him in the car.

We're headed to an award show right now and I'm scared. Alana is gonna be there and I'm really nervous about seeing her again.

"I doubt you'll even run into her. You're gonna be fine." He pats my back assuringly.

I wish I could believe that.

I can't stop thinking about Alana. It's hard to sleep at night just because of her. She literally lives in my mind.

We get to the venue and get out of the car, walking inside. "Let's find our seats." Finneas nods towards the audience and I follow him over there.

We get to our seats and sit down.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous.

C'mon, Billie. You can't be freaking out over a person like th-

Shit.

I see Alana walk in with, no surprise, Olivia, laughing about something as they find their seats. I try to look away, but it's hard not to stare when she look so beautiful. I can't believe I let her go.

Her eyes lock with mine as she notices me staring at her and she glares at me before turning back to Olivia. I deserve that.

"Hey, it's okay." Finneas rubs my shoulder as he notices what happened and I shrug his hand off. "It's fine, Finn." I sigh, looking down at my lap.

                                              ~

Alana comes out onto the stage since she's the one announcing the next award which I just so happen to be nominated for. I'm literally praying I don't win just because I don't want to have to talk to her.

"And the winner for The Song of the Summer category is... oh, look at that. Billie Eilish." Alana announces.

Of fucking course.

I stand up nervously and walk to the stage with people applauding. My song 'What Was I Made For?' was the one that won the award.

I walk onto the stage and stand next to Alana who hands me the award with what I can tell is a fake smile. "Thank you." I whisper to her.

"I'm so grateful for this," I say into the mic. "I'd like to thank my team, my family, especially my brother, Finneas, and of course, my amazing fans."

Once I'm done, I walk backstage with Alana since we both have to go back to our seats. I put my award on the shelf that they keep them on till the show is over and I catch up to Alana. "Alana, can we please talk?" I ask hopefully.

"Billie, just leave me alone... please." She shakes her head and starts walking faster.

God, it's no fucking use.

I walk back to my seat and sit back down. Finneas looks at me with raised eyebrows and I shake my head. "She wants me to leave her alone." I tell him.

"I'm sorry, Bil." He sighs.

                                               ~

The show is over and now we're at the after party. I've just been sitting around on my phone. I don't want to be here right now, honestly. I just want to go home. I've been watching Alana dancing and drinking way too much. 

I sigh and get up and walk over to Olivia. "Hey," I say to her. "Oh, hi, Billie." She smiles at me.

"Is Alana okay? I've seen her down, like, 6 drinks already." I scratch the back of my neck awkwardly. "I told her to slow down, but she won't listen. She's fucking plastered." She turns around to look at me since she's finished getting a drink, but she spots Alana. "Oh shit, she's yelling at that girl who took the last hot dog." She says and I laugh.