wildest dreams | b.e

Missing you | 031

Billie's POV

Alana is in New York right now and I honestly miss her. I don't know what's going on between us, but even just having her as a friend again is good.

Maybe I could call her? We haven't talked in a little bit and she's not coming back to LA for a few more days. You know what? Fuck it.

iMessage:

alana

                                                               hey could we call?
you wanna call?
yes alana, i do 💀
um yeah that's fine i'll
just have to whisper bc
liv is asleep rn
alright cool

Irl:

I cleared my throat before going to Alana's contact and calling her.

She quickly picks up after it rings once. "Hey," She rasped. Fuck, her voice sounds hot.

No, Billie, stop it.

"Hey." I respond. "How are you?" I ask her.

"I'm alright, just tired. How 'bout you?" She talks quietly but clearly on the phone.

"I'm pretty good." I say and she hums in response. "I miss you, you know." I tell her.

"Oh, yeah?" She asks.

Holy shit, that was hot as fuck.

"Mhm." I nod.

"Eh, I miss you, too, I guess." She says in a teasing voice and I roll my eyes.

"Rude." I sigh and she laughs quietly.

We end up switching to FaceTime after talking for a bit so she can see what I'm doing since I told her I was gonna get ready for bed.

I set my phone up on the bathroom counter and start to do my skincare while she watches.

Not gonna lie, I feel nervous around her. I think I actually have feelings for her, but I don't know? I may or may not have started talking to my ex again.. don't be mad. I just don't know what I want right now.

I finish up my skincare and look at my screen to see her eyes are closed. "Alana?" I ask.

No response.

"You there?"

Nothing.

She's asleep.

I grab my phone and go back to my bed and I lay down. Her lips are slightly parted and she's snoring softly. She looks so pretty.

Why do I feel this way about her?

I shouldn't.

I don't want to.

Or do I?

Ugh, I don't fucking know!

I accidentally took a FaceTime photo of her.

Right, accidentally. My finger just.. slipped?

Fuck off.

"Goodnight, Alana." I whisper to her before hanging up the call.

I put my phone on the charger before putting it on my nightstand. I shut the light off and close my eyes to go to sleep, but it's hard when Alana's on my mind. She's been on my mind a lot lately.

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I opened my eyes to see the sun shining through my window and I groaned as I buried my head into my pillow. I forgot to close my fucking curtains. It's too bright right now.