decisions (n.)
a conclusion or resolution reached after consideration.
CHECKMATE #4
"world-changing decisions are hard to make, but learning you have to sacrifice is even harder."
Life has gone back to normal in the Adelaide Woods five years after t...
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track #06 in gwyneth thalia anderson
itzy // loco.
TWO RAPS come at my door, followed by Tristan poking his head through the gap.
I sit cross-legged on my bed with a book in my lap, but once he comes in, I immediately put it away, gesturing for Tristan to sit on the bed with me, but he chooses the chair instead.
"I heard you guys outside," I murmur, and he nods in understanding. "I don't know what you want me to say, honestly. Do you want me to tell you it wasn't fair? I don't think so – so what do you want to talk about. I'm here to listen; always."
He shakes his head no to my question. "I- I just don't understand. If Aiden truly loved Anson, why'd he give the promise of their eternal love to someone else? And at that, Laine, Anson's best friend? It's the equivalent of cheating, Gwyn. It's common knowledge that you don't even date your best friend's ex – or pretend nothing happened when she in fact passed away. The thing is, I saw Aiden looking at her with love in his eyes. How could this have happened?"
My eyes start glazing over – both in sadness for Tristan and disbelief at Aiden's behavior. Sure, I knew Laine now owned the promise ring Aiden was supposed to give his dead girlfriend, but I didn't read too much into it. Now that Tristan had pointed it out, I began to feel like Aiden was deliberately changing his emotions.
"Maybe he's just trying to forget she ever existed at all. To him, removing all reminders of Anson's existence could be his remedy. Either that or drowning in pain."
Trissy takes a book from my shelf and flips through it, "But not both. I swear every time I'm home, he's stuck in his room listening to her old voice messages muttering Anson, Anson, Anson. But then he's ripping her pictures apart, pretending she meant nothing to him, giving Laine the ring that was supposed to be hers. Why? And he isn't even acknowledging Cadence's death. Doesn't he understand that they all meant a lot to us? Ava died, Gwyneth. My sister died. And Aiden has the audacity to act disrespectful in front of everyone here, who're all mourning the loss of people so important to us? Unlike what Kun said, this is truly selfish. Not you choosing to save your parents. You weren't wrong for that. I respect you for it."
I sigh at the mention of Kunboss – I still haven't managed to make things right with him once and for all. "I guess I'm starting to become insecure, Tris," I say, pulling a blanket over my legs. "He keeps saying I'm selfish. I used to strongly oppose it, but now that my actions have played such a big part in this, I'm starting to doubt whether my choices were right. You can hate me. Anson, Ava, Cadence – they all died because of me. But-"
"-you love your dad," he cuts in, and I nod sadly. "I would do the same. Don't let him define you or what you do. Look at this," he manages a tight-lipped smile, lifting the book up.
