I fear being replaced for someone who can offer more.
A better promise. A stronger command of themselves and what it is they desire. A surety I never seem to be able to convey.
I do have promise. I do have hope, newly acquired. But I can acknowledge that my growth is new and will take time to fully blossom.
I wonder if he knows. I wonder if he will wait for me. Does he not desire someone already there? Someone already with a self-surety like himself.
Loving is easy.
It's everything else that poses challenges. I think I will await the day he decides he would rather be rid of me. Not for a lack of love. Nor lack of connection. But for having a different scope on things. For me not being ready. I would understand. Out of love why would I hold him back?
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New beginnings p2
RastgeleA chance to self discover and explore the inner dialogue that will help define my future self.
