My Eywa || AVATAR

32 🍂 Distressing and Anguished Night 🍂

I found myself in the avatar house, getting ready to let my avatar rest and return to my human body. Night had fallen, and it was time to have dinner and rest. However, the emptiness in my heart felt deeper than ever. Three days had passed since they took Spider, and my life seemed suspended in sadness and loneliness.

Without him, everything seemed devoid of meaning. I no longer had anyone to talk to before sleep, to share my joys and mock my misfortunes.

Every night, I plunged into a sea of tears, consumed by worry about his well-being. I questioned whether he would be safe or if he would be undergoing torment and torture to extract information. Unanswered questions multiplied in my mind, leaving behind an ever-widening trail of anguish.

Neteyam had come loking for me on a couple of occasions, attempting to talk. But I was too hurt by what had happened. I understood that they were a family and protected each other, but the void left by Spider's absence was overwhelming. It pained me that they hadn't tried something to rescue him.

Although a part of me was grateful to Neteyam for saving me, a larger part resented that he had taken me away from my brother when he needed me the most.

I had spoken with Kiri and Lo'ak, who visited me the night after the abduction. They were worried about me and wanted to keep me company, knowing I was going through a tough time; they, too, were overwhelmed and disheartened. I even suspected that something else was going on that they were hiding from me. However, I decided to let it go, as I didn't have the energy to pursue it.

I felt very grateful to have them as friends, and that night was easier to fall asleep after sharing my thoughts and emotions with them.

Now, I had just finished brushing my teeth and, with my back to the entrance, I was getting ready to lie down in the hammock. That's when I felt a hand on my shoulder, calling me. I turned quickly to see who it was, and there was Harper in her avatar, looking at me with compassion. Behind her, at a safe distance, was Neteyam.

I rolled my eyes upon seeing him and sighed, feeling suffocated. I didn't want to see him, let alone talk to him. I wasn't ready yet. For now, I just wanted to be alone.

"Someone's looking for you," Harper said very gently.

"I already saw him," I replied with annoyance, turning my hammock to the other side while arranging a pillow at the head. "Tell him to go away," I pressed the pillow forcefully onto the hammock, closing my eyes tightly, holding back the tears.

Harper circled the hammock, positioning herself beside me. Her hands grasped my shoulders as our eyes met. "I think you should hear what he has to say," her tone laden with concern unsettled me. Sideways, I glanced over her shoulder at Neteyam, and I could see a dejected expression on his face. A pang of pain pierced through me at seeing him in that state.

I sought answers in Harper's gaze, but she simply watched me with sadness, conveying the need to talk to Neteyam.

Intrigued and worried by this warning, I decided to approach him. Not without first bidding Harper good night, expressing gratitude for her presence and support.

"Hey," Neteyam said when I approached him. His voice sounded soft and warm.

"Hello," I replied curtly, unable to find anything more to say at that moment.

"Can we go somewhere?" he asked almost pleadingly.

"What's going on, Neteyam?" I asked, a bit annoyed. Where did he want to go at this hour? "We can talk here."

"Please," he pleaded, his face reflecting a deep need. Unable to refuse, I nodded, agreeing to his request.

We approached the edge of the cliff slowly. With a soft call, Taw arrived to perch beside us. Without a word, we silently mounted him and took off into the night sky.