deceit • Han Seojun x Kang Soojin

59. anti - hero

I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

- anti-hero (taylor swift)

59. anti - hero

"Hyung - would you mind if I ask you something?"

Han Seojun had never interacted with any of his band mates and neither did they talk to the aloof man. They had tried - a lot - to get the man open up and speak to them, if not as a friend, then as their frontman but Seojun always kept to his guitar and the songs.

He hardly spoke up - a little at recitals and practices to guide the band - but never tried to get involved in personal matters of any of the boys. He kept to himself and kept his secrets hidden.

Even then, H, the youngest member was Seojun's favourite. Something about the goofy boy reminded Seojun of good, happy years.

Seojun didn't reply to H's question, rather kept practicing the song as he flipped the sheet.

"This woman, Kang Soojin-shi," That caught Seojun's attention ar once and he stopped strumming his guitar. "Is she your girlfriend?"

Seojun really wished - all the time - that looks could kill people, so by now he'd have half the people around him buried underground. He glared at the boy, who was taking his chances nonetheless, slyly looking at Han Seojun.

"Don't look at me like that - it's just, the way you behave around her..."

"What does that mean?"

"I mean I never - ever in my entire career of being in Starlight - saw you speak more than two words rather syllables and here you are, with sentences and paragraphs on end." Seojun narrowed his gaze at the boy, who continued to ignore him. "Not just me, the rest of the boys think that too. I was the only one brave enough to confront you and find out the truth."

"Soojin isn't my girlfriend - nor was she my ex-girlfriend." Seojun focused on the music sheet again, ignoring the funny feeling in his heart as he said in the most monotonous voice possible. "And neither is she my fri -"

Friend.

Soojin wanted them to be friends again. But Seojun wasn't sure about the entire thing. Heck, all he did the entire time they were together was keep gnawing at her lips and resist the urge to kiss them.

How in the world was he to be friends with her when his thoughts weren't friendly.

But, he wanted her around. He really wanted her around and that may have been why he signed the contract in the first place. As much as he'd deny being involved with Kang Soojin, he couldn't deny how much he longed for her.

He hadn't agreed to being friends with Soojin, asked for some time because there was no way they'd be friends after having a history as complicated as that. But - if they weren't friends, Soojin would be around that fancy boss of hers and he wouldn't be able to do anything about it.

Atleast as friends, he'd be closer to her.

"Not friends?" H interrupted his thoughts, a chuckle on the side, "it looks like you both need a roo-"

The door to the auditorium opened at once and the rest of the bandmates arrived, thankfully on time else H would have had a hard time covering the bruises on his face. The conversation was kept on hold while the band practiced for their Busan concert which was two days away.

Seojun, however, still couldn't get Kang Soojin and her red lips out of his mind.

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"You asked him to be your friend?"