𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 | 𝗥𝗘𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗘 𝟭𝟵𝟵𝟵 - 𝑴𝑨𝑳𝑬 𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑫𝑬𝑹

Chapter 15 - Wounds of the Past

Last dose of depression. Here you go before I'm going off, goodnight... For real this time, no more... Tender is the Night

INSERT SOUNDTRACK: Joji - Die For You

A soul crushed by the cold winds of loneliness is a sight to be seen. The silence of your thoughts eats away at you until the loneliness consumes you entirely. you know that it is now merely a distant and unattainable dream. It feels...lonely. A coldness that never seems to pass. As if a weight lies upon every step you take. A weight of expectations, a weight of guilt, a weight of regrets. In the end, a weight upon your soul itself. To be alone is to be truly empty. To be alone is a fate few would wish for. How does it feel? In a word, miserable. The joy of sharing your thoughts, the love of caring for someone, the warmth of being in each other's embrace. That is all swept away, all gone when you are alone. The cold embrace of loneliness wraps around living being like it's the only comfort they can give. One does not possess any knowledge regarding the topic and doesn't know how long they have been alone like this but the years of pain, tears, and emptiness weigh them down. The only thing that they can feel now is anger, self-hatred, and despair.

To be alone is to truly ponder on one question: what's the point? All the hard work, the sacrifices you made, were they in vain? You wonder this because you are alone. Your accomplishments and achievements seem so small, and insignificant. Because you have nobody to share them with. It's truly a miserable feeling. All the joy that life has to offer, is gone. Replaced by self-pity and emptiness. You feel as though you need somebody, someone to truly understand you. To finally rid you of this isolation. But that's...impossible. Loneliness is something that affects everyone differently. Some people might see it as a state of solitude, while others might see it as a painful emptiness. It all depends on how you view the world around you. It is not easy to simply define loneliness because it can be a very personal and complicated feeling for each individual. It can be caused by many things, such as losing loved ones, moving to a new city, or being in an unhappy relationship. Whatever the cause, loneliness can be a difficult emotion to cope with. That is because loneliness is a very painful thing to experience. It is a feeling of emptiness that can be very hard to deal with. When a person feels alone, they can often feel very depressed and have negative thoughts about themselves. They may struggle to relate to other people and feel like they have no one to turn to. This can lead to feelings of anger and frustration, as well as a sense of hopelessness and futility. The pain of loneliness can be very hard to bear, which is why it is important to seek out support and connection with others.

It seems like Y/N is no stranger to loneliness and has experienced it multiple times. It sounds like Y/N has had a difficult time coping with the emotions that come with being alone. It's no surprise that they may feel overwhelmed and hopeless. It's natural to feel this way when you have been alone for a long time or have been through many hardships. It's a sign that Y/N needs to seek out support and connection with others. Reaching out to friends, family members, or even professionals may be an important step in healing and overcoming the loneliness that Y/N has been experiencing. Truly a tragic fate to face this kind of dilemma continuously. To be locked in a constant cycle of darkness and pain. No wonder he is so despondent and devoid of hope. He has come to believe that he is stuck in this cycle and there is little he can do to escape. His despair has engulfed him. The only escape he knows is to turn off the lights and let the darkness consume him. This is a desperate attempt to numb the pain and avoid the reality of his situation. The abyss seems to be his only refuge and he is willing to accept whatever it has to offer.