About You || Anakin Skywalker x OC ||

(45) Not Right

"I will guide you with the stars"

-Jade LeMac

I don't want to be sad anymore. It's the only real thought in my mind as I stare at the wall in the barracks. I don't want to be sad. When the battle ended, I had been whisked away from Anakin and escorted to the medbay. It's been a restless hour and I haven't seen him since.

"I can hardly feel you through the bond." Anakin's words ring through my mind like a bell, refusing to go away. That would explain why he didn't turn when I got there, why he didn't try and contact me through the bond. Oh God.

Fresh tears spill from my eyes and I'm a sobbing mess once again. Thankfully, the med droid had left, leaving me alone. But I didn't want to be alone, I wanted Anakin, my Anakin. Hyperventilating, I rocked back and forth on the bed, my legs tucked into my chest, my arms wrapped tightly around them. Small screams escaped my lips as I closed my eyes, trying to wish the feeling away. I couldn't do it, I couldn't do it. I can't do this. I. Can't. Do. This.

Suddenly, the doors whooshed open and Anakin was rushing in. He was by my side instantly, his hands running along my body as if they were checking for any injuries. But of course, there were none. Pulling a chair up, Anakin sat beside me, taking my hand in his. I watched our intertwined hands, a feeling of wrongness sweeping into my body.

"What happened Leora?" Anakin whispered softly, "You have to tell someone." Upon entering the cruiser I had been questioned by a number of officers about my whereabouts, but for some reason, I just couldn't say anything. I couldn't bring myself to speak the truth. There were more universes out there, places different from ours.

"I- I can't say it." I replied, my body shrinking back a bit, "Can you hear me?" I pleaded through the bond, "Please Anakin." His lack of response only broke me further, whatever pieces of myself I had been holding onto shattered. Our bond was so weak. What if it was never restored? What if we weren't soul mates?

Looking down at the IV in my arm, an idea struck me. Pulling away from Anakin, I hit a button near the bed, an immediate rush of euphoria washing over me as the medication entered my system. Sighing in relief, I slipped onto the bed, everything becoming hazy.

"Leora what did you just do?" Anakin demanded, gently lifting the iv in my arm. I watched, mesmerized as his beautiful eyes landed on the button before looking back at me.

Playing with Anakin's fingers, I giggled, "I don't think I can handle our bond breaking." Sighing, I rolled over, drowsiness setting in me like a dead weight, "I missed you so much and I didn't even know it, but now that I'm back I do." I continued as Anakin stilled beneath me, "I saw you twice. Once when Loki captured me, and then when Wanda used her mind power on me! Oh my God! Wanda!" Snapping my fingers, I jumped up, "That's how I got back, Wanda used her powers and-"Red flooded my vision, Wanda's screams filling my ears. The smile on my face instantly dropped as my eyes met Anakin's. Pietro was dead. And I was back here.

Anakin looked anxious as he stared at me, almost breaking through to my drug induced mind. "Oh poor Wanda." I muttered, "Pietro died, she lost control." Falling back down onto the bed, I continued, "I hope she's ok, I hope they're all ok, but of course they're going to be ok, they're The Avengers, Earth's mightiest heroes! Nothing can stop them, not even Ultron." I snuggled back into the pillow, "Wanna know a secret Ani?"

"Sure." Anakin's voice was filled with uncertainty and worry as he brushed his fingers through my hair, "You can tell me anything Leora, I'm always going to be here with you." What did I do to deserve someone like him?

Giggling, I continued, "Wherever I was, I was gone for three years, not three months. Time works so strange."

Anakin kissed the top of my head, tucking me into the bed, "Get some rest Leora." He muttered, "You can tell me the rest later."