Dear Diary

reminders of him...

Remember all the times you were happy.
Remember all the times you felt lucky.
Whether it be small or big
Remember the times when you felt that surge for the first time.
Remember the time when you watched the heirs for the first time .
Remember that first cry from kdrama.
Remember the flutters you got when you watched Kim tan removing eun sangs hair tie.
Remember how happy you used to be.
Remember the tragically beautiful moon lovers .
Remember the pretty eun woo
Remember the times when you felt grateful for whatever you had or accomplished
Remember the first time you got your bicycle and how grandpa was there asking about the bell ,which wasn't there sadly...
Remember when you first learnt to ride your bicycle.
How you went to that park
How you first met your first best friend
Remember the cake you had at her house .
Remember all the happy times you had with her
Remember all the play dates .
Remember all the times you talked like there wasn't any tomorrow.
Remember how you felt when you scored the highest ii your class.
How you felt when your class teacher complimented you in front of your parents
That you're strong
That you can  do it...
Remember the happy tears you hid behind that smile you wore that day
Remember how you almost cried in front of the whole class when you were asked how you did so good in the exams
These times made me feel so valued ...
So happy ... (I'm crying as I write)
Remember how you felt when anyone complimented you.
The day in 8th standard , the teacher asked about you , how you study , how nicely you wrote the answers .
Remember the times when you were not into boy drama.
The happy. Annual functions
The trips and picnics ..
Remember the times when you used to be ever too excited  to meet your cousins . The train trips with your family.
The summer vacations when you were ever so impatient of going to granny's.
The ice water we used to play on the roof.
The songs we danced to and cosplayed .
The 5 rupee icecreams we begged for our parents to buy .
The strategies we made while playing simple games .
The horror movies we watched in the dvd cassettes
The gta vice city and plants vs zombies and cake shop and what not.
The late night talks you had with your fav cousins.
And giggling all night while getting scolded.
All the laughter you once laughed  without worrying how you looked
See so many times and so many reasons to be happy
Don't be sad 🥺 please...
Not because of jerks
You are not useless
You are valuable.
Atleast to your parents,and to so many other people who will be sad once you die.
Recent ones aren't many but still
Remember the feeling when you got to know someone likes you.
Remember the time when you got a pretty title (I can't think of anymore)