Dear Diary

thank u next

APRIL 25

I was so thankful for everything that has ever happened to me and for all the people who gave me those precious moments in my life . I m just forever grateful for y'all
You guys made me feel like I'm not the ugliest person who ever lived and even pretty for a while
I know I'm not pretty now
And that I'm gaining weight maybe . But idfc about that.
Like I am an aspirant. How the fuck do you want me to look like . A model?
I can confirm noone who actually qualifies the exam with flying colors aor is a topper and not just a lame idiotic aspirant doesn't look super pretty .
Like you might even spot the ugliest person in the room and boom they are first rankers. Well it's not always the case and I'm not generalising. But it is the truth in most of the cases and that's why I think that aspirants ,the real ones I mean ,Are the real shit . Are the people who've been through a lot and the real tough world . Not just random dude or girl complaining how they couldn't celebrate their 16th birthday in that hotel
Like gurrll I didn't even celebrate mine .
Maybe I'm stereotyping stuff but that is just the truth .
Yeah as always there exist some exceptions
But most of it is just special pretence ifyk what I mean

I drifted off topic btw..

Im a real tough kid
I can handle my shit
They said Babe you gotta fake it till you make it
And I did !!!
Lights camera bitch smile
Even when you wanna die
He said he'd love me all his life
But that life was too short
Breaking down I hit the floor
All the pieces of me shattered as the crowd was chanting more
I was grinnin like I'm winning
I was hittin my mark
Cos I can do it with a broken heart
Im so depressed I act like it's my birthday everyday
Im so obsessed with him but he avoids me
Like the plague ...