I'm sad more than usual ...
I cried like a baby dunno why ..
It's not like I just witnessed a death or watched a sad drama but it is just so not in control of me ...my tears .. my emotions (ig it's my hormones cos my period is just on its way in a day or two)....
So I did not watch a death scene or a breakup drama or anything of that sort but do you know what made me cry .........
The fact that i cannot have a person just for me in my life cos I don't deserve them and the fact that it's impossible for me to get into a relationship other than someone just playing with my feelings... I'm literally shedding tears as I write
Do you know that i do relate to Taylor swifts songs most of the time but it's just because of the things I watch in a kdrama and just wish for it to happen to me (just 1 %would be enough).....
I literally*sobbing* just watched a beautiful confession scene in which they didn't even kiss but the chemistry and warmth they portrayed and proposed was just something out of this world and uhhhh just heightened my unrealistic expectations from people .... It reminded me how much I deserve and how people treat me like shit and...*sobbing*
I know it's because of the beautiful faces i see on the screen and i do know that it is fictional but 좀이라도 다정한 것들이 보면 뭐 행복을 느끼고 싶었어 내가 ...
I swear it's because of the hormones but stilll IT HURTS....
IT IS PAINFUL TO NOT EXPERIENCE THINGS BUT JUST END UP LONGING FOR THEM UNTIL THE DAY YOU DIE JUST BECAUSE THE WORLD IS FUCKED UP!!!!!
THE PEOPLE ARE.....
No....SWEETIE !!!!!!
YOU DESERVE SO MUCH MORE ...
I do want that i agree but this 8s not the time
This time is there for you to do your best , excel in you exams and have a good career
(This part of me is responsible ik but there is more to it .......A part of me that expresses itself from time to time and marks its presence with the heart flutters and pain it accompanies)
It's okay ..... It's going to be fine.... Everything is gonna be alright
I WANT YOU TO READ THIS MESSAGE THE NEXT TIME YOU FEEL THIS WAY.....
Remember you are beautiful the way you are and don't change yourself for anyone regardless who it may be
I know it's going to be hard but just keep striving towards your goal
In the end everything will turn out to be better and for the better
You just need to keep going , never lose hope , and remember it's okay to cry sometimes ,"" it's okay to not be okay"" is what I wanted to say....
Btw that was the best confession I have ever seen in my 16 years of life.... 짧지만
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Dear Diary
Algemene fictieSo I thought about writing so many stories and even planned the backstory but ofcourse being the person I am I cannot stick to doing something monotonous So just gonna post random thoughts and occurrences which ofc would be entertaining yeah that's...
