Dear Diary

to all the happy times I've had

First time .......

So this time was again one of the moments that ended sad . But who cares about the ending , atleast I had a fun story nor did it affect me in any way .
So it was the time when I was sixteen and yeah nothing special but all the things that happened between me and him .
It wasn't much for him but was for me and even if we both don't care about it now  , I have to admit that I liked it .
The thought of someone seeing me as ..... I don't know ,,
"a potential someone" ig (I'm not good with words)
So yeah I'm thankful for him to have made me experience the thrills of having a fling or situationship maybe
(Irghhhh not gettin words)
And then all the brushes and contacts were,  it did flutter my heart at some point . I want to  go through it all over again.

Second time 

Now this is fresh . There was nothing much I liked about this event . But yeah someone liking me gave me a next level confidence booster . It was all good . Atleast he didn't cross boundaries. Atleast he stopped ,dunno for what reason tho . Maybe he sensed that I was creeped out .
But ig its bcos of the class shift but anyways it turned out for the better and now I can focus on my studies more.

But yeah if you thought I wouldnt think about u . No you're wrong and people really need to stop degrading themselves okay . Its not the end of the world if smthn
ends or stops because there is another gift that God has been hiding from you . You can't get all of it at once . It might look like someone is happy from the outside but it is not so always . Every coin has two sides . Every face has a devil and an angel . People can't be good always . And if they are , doesn't mean they don't have a bad side to them.
They are just better at hiding it .
But some are not and you don't have to care about that or feel pressured about it or feel disappointed on that person .
But again another reason to not put someone on a pedestal higher than u . That doesn't mean you're mighty .
Conversely, it means you won't hurt urself in the process of getting to know the bad side of other people or the people you trusted in or the people you once liked or admired . Trust me future girlie... I've been thru it .
Once you think of someone as admirable they backfire .
However ,kdrama crushes and cute k idols are an exception ...😅
I mean I can't help it if I seriously like cha eun woo.
I mean look at his gorgeous gorgeous face .
And the way he smiles oh my gosh ,that eye smile 💗💗
Okay well,let's not turn this into umm an eunwoo fanfic okay ....?