They just don't care about me uk
They just don't...
You know what the problem is. They always want to bodyshame me all the time.
I hate that so much
Just cos I ate till I was full and satisfied. They couldn't see it . They just are so....
I am sick of this society and my family where you are constantly judged of what you eat and....
I hate them looking at me . I hate how they constantly make me feel bad about what I eat and how much I eat.
I've stopped eating in front of them bcos of that. I have literally become so insecure of eating with others . I can't eat in front of anyone . I guess this is the role of family in your life. Giving you insecurities that will haunt your life forever . And leave a deep scar . That's why I thought maybe love can cure my problems . But now I am just so insecure of myself that I literally can't imagine anyone liking me or loving me for who I am and not the way I look . Tan... I miss u so much . I know that you were only attracted to my frickin body and face . But you made me feel special . And I like u so much . But why is it so . God....
Am I never going to have anyone in my life .
Am I going to die just like that .
I know I'm not as good as I once thought I was. But you know what I still like myself when I look at myself after a hair wash and conditioned hair . And after a dreaded workout . But .... People just can't handle someone prettier than them right?
Pink.... U never thought you'd make such a difference to me right?
But you do ... U must be glad . Only if you knew. Only if we could ever talk . Only if I could meet you on valentine's
Only if we could ever hold hands. Only if we could ever be friends . More than friends ...
No we can't ... I know it now .
You were just a chapter in my life . Just like the one before . Who vanished like it never happened
I can't believe I'm crying because of a boy...
Never in my life did I think ....this day would come by
PS
Taylor swift inspo
"You were just a chapter in my old diary
With the pages ripped out ....."
You were so magnetic
It was almost obnoxious....
YOU ARE READING
Dear Diary
General FictionSo I thought about writing so many stories and even planned the backstory but ofcourse being the person I am I cannot stick to doing something monotonous So just gonna post random thoughts and occurrences which ofc would be entertaining yeah that's...
