There have been times where I was just so fed up of everything and not even being jealous at some point , but just pure sadness .
Always thought that it is something that is just banished for me , not allowed, unreachable.
And not just one thing , I thought the same way for many things that followed and I still do . And I think that's the reason that I'm always surrounded by this empty sadness , the pent up emotions that are ready to burst out at every moment.
But there's one thing I've learned in all this shit happening that God is there with you....
Even if no one else is !!
And though I realised that not too long ago .I mean I always believed in some supreme entity if not some materialistic/defined / visualisable (if that's a word)being..
This was because I always longed for so many things but didn't do the work required and I guess that is why I didn't get it ...but God proved me wrong
It's like he said to me everything is there for you in my store but I'm just waiting for the right time to give it to you .
Ofc I cannot just depend on the right time for it to come but it just gives you the strength to constantly do your deed....
It's just the same as 'God helps those who help themselves'
You know whenever you're just done of everything..
Remember why you started it in the first place and God will help you ...
Now why am I thinking that God helped me even if I was the one who worked hard (did I??)...
Well it is not that ,I've realised that if you become too confident of what you've achieved you are always humbled by God in some way ...
And it's so true ....
But still after all this there are things that you just cannot get ,maybe not in this lifetime (or do only I think that way)
But whatever...he always has plans for you
You're not alone
You're not deserted.
You're not ignored ...
But why do I still feel wronged
Why do I still feel not enough
Why do I still not satisfied
Guess thats cos I'm human
And these deep talks ain't affecting this prudent teen
But still....( God !!the number of times I switch)
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Dear Diary
General FictionSo I thought about writing so many stories and even planned the backstory but ofcourse being the person I am I cannot stick to doing something monotonous So just gonna post random thoughts and occurrences which ofc would be entertaining yeah that's...
