"Unbroken Threads: A Woman's Journey Through Hardship and Purpose"

Decisions, Decisions!

Tomorrow turned into today once again and I was awakened with a new sense of purpose. I vowed that today would be the day that I took my life back. I would finally have the nerve to ask Kin for a divorce and put all my energy into being a woman of God, being the World's greatest mom, and becoming one of the greatest Christian visual artists of all time. After having breakfast and checking in with the Fam, I was ready to start my day.

Next up, call Kin. I know that it may seem wrong to do this over the phone but this talk couldn't wait any longer. We haven't really "talked" to each other in a long time. Screaming and yelling don't count. Now, I'm just mentally and emotionally exhausted. Love shouldn't be something that you only feel in a dream. I think that I'd been using the fantasy thing as a coping mechanism. It's not a sin to want to be happy, is it? I'd rather be alone and happy, than married and miserable.

The moment of truth had arrived. I am dialing the number. As soon as Kin answers he seems annoyed. Hi, Kin! "How's everything," I ask. His response was so rude that I can't bring myself to repeat it. Kin begins to yell. He says that he doesn't have time for my drama. I reply it'll only take a second. I'M DONE!

"What does that mean?" Kin asks. I don't want to be married to you anymore. I want a divorce! (I got it out, I spoke those words!) Who is it? Kin asks. Who is what? I ask in confusion. Who is it? Kin asks, again. I reply it's you, not me! Kin begins to call me every terrible hurtful name in the book. (He begins to curse me from my rooter to my tooter.) I respond simply; Great, so you agree! (And I end the phone call)

I cry for about a good hour or so. It's a release of so many emotions and I feel relieved. Kin calls me twelve times in twenty minutes. The first time that we've spoken this often in over ten years. (Make it stop!) It's just after 3 pm and my cry face hasn't gone down yet. I am emotionally exhausted but I manage to beat my face, throw on a dress, a pair of Chuck Taylors, and a fedora before running out the door to go to the next stop on this press tour. (yay, me!)

I pulled up to the Psalm 31 Studios lot this time. I am greeted by Melinda (the PR Rep) and the producer for the Afternoont show. As we walk and talk, Melinda and the producer go over the agenda for Classix and I's segment. Show time t-30 minutes. As we make our way to the green room, I am greeted by Mr. Mr. Mr. Kaffe and Rock Love from Black Roots.

As you may remember; Black Roots and I met at the initial meeting with the board. Mr. Mr. Kaffe is soon whisked away, and I am left chatting with Rock. He begins to ask me about my art and what my inspiration is for the exhibit. Although I had been asked this question multiple times in the past few days, this was the first time that I had thought about the actual exhibit in its entirety. How this could make or break my career. This time I answer the question both authentically and intentionally.

"Display Cases" (the name of my event) is an expression of my love for God. It's all about him. I plan to share my testimony, share the gospel with the world through my art. Melding the worlds of fashion, art, poetry, photography, and Christian music together to form one magnificent masterpiece. I am going to show every facet of the making of me. From a caterpillar to a butterfly. At that moment, I will be fully exposed.

God has carefully and purposely made each of us, "fearfully and wonderfully." So if He thought of us and created each of us so intentionally, we need to understand His purpose for the lives He has given us. He has created a body for me to do his will and that's why I chose the name, "Display Cases" for this event.

"Beautiful, love. I'm truly honored to be on this journey with you; my sister, Rock, responds. Just then, the producer of the show walks in and says, "We are live in 5". "That's my cue," Rock says as he bids me ado.