De Silva Series 1: Shy to you [On-going]

19| Jealousy II

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"I-I," I didn't finish what I'm about to say when he sighed. "Forget it, it's wrong to ask about it. I'm sorry. Baka mamaya mapaano ka pa dahil naalala mo na naman. Forget I asked." He smiled before he calls a maid and was about to leave.

"I don't know! If i-it's some past or just a d-dream," Tumigil siya sa sinabi ko. I should just tell him. "I was hospitalized because of my dengue, and there I met a child whom I call Matthew-" Hindi ko na naituloy ang sasabihin ko ng umupo ulit siya, but this time. Tumabi siya sa akin.

"Go on, I'll listen." Tumango ako at inalala pa ang mga pangyayari. He was eagerly listening to me and when I finished, he was silenced by what I said kaya kinabahan ako. I knew that it's weird dreaming about someone that might actually be him. There must've been something inside his mind.

"We have the same name, and job." Because, he might be you.

"My dream could be real or not, but its effect on me is not good. Because it happened in a hospital." I mumbled which he heard. He was about to teply when I spoke again.

"No one tried to save me in that hospital, except my twin sister. Who died by saving me." Tumulo ang luha ko ng hindi ko alam kaya napatawa ako at agad ko iyong pinahid. Why did I suddenly opened up to him? He even knew about my secret twin.

"That explains why you left the hospital, when you're not supposed to. Because you have a history there." I nodded.

"I don't like hospitals, because the moment someone helped me, she died, and worse is she's my twin sister," I let out a deep sigh.

"I was still haunted by that experience of mine, so everytime I will be inside a hospital especially when it's dark, I will suffer from suffocation and then all I will remember is opening my eyes. So my reaction that night was because of my trauma." I added.

He was quietly gazing at me when I heard his question. "Do you think, that dream is part of your memory?" I shook my head. "I don't know but I feel like it is," My hand touched my chest. "Here." I looked down and looked back when he apologized.

"I'm sorry." Why is he saying sorry, umiling ako. "It's not your fault," I smiled. "I'm okay now, Ava told me not to bother about things in the past at mag focus sa present." I told him.

"Can I ask you one last question?" I smiled and nodded at him. "If one day, you recovered your lost memories and you found out that it's someone's fault. What will you do? Knowing that your twin sister died because of that someone?" Why do I feel like he's feeling guilty?

"Hmmm...." Nag-isip ako saglit bago sumagot. But Ava told me not to dwell on the past because nothing will happen if I stayed on it, and forgiveness is the key to be free from the heavy burdens. "Siguro, I'll just forgive and forget. Past is past nga diba." I answered.

"But it's different from what you said. Once you're in the real scenario, hindi natin alam ang mangyayari." I nodded by what he said. "May point ka, pero I wanted to forgive and forget even though it's hard."

I stood up and lie down on the bed. I feel drained na rin kase. "We still have dinner later. Tomorrow, she will come back to introduce herself. At that time, please don't leave my side." Napatingin ako sa kaniya at tumango.

"Rest, Cariño. I'll stay beside you." Hindi ko alam pero talagang inaantok ako ngayon. I felt his lips on my forehead as I slowly close my eyes and before I doze off to sleep, I heard him mumble. But I didn't understand it.

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Agad akong napamulat at napahawak sa dibdib. Habol ko ang aking paghinga at napaluha na sa sobrang sakit ng aking dibdib. "H-hazel," She went near me. "Miss Amerhyst, we're sorry for not giving you a good environment. Please calm down, we'll take care of this."