His Safe Haven ~ EDITING on hold ~

Chapter Twenty Three

“Emilia wait” Evan's voice sent a chill down my spine as I walked away quicker, I ducked into the female toilets finally letting the tears fall from my eyes. I stood looking in the mirror, I was nothing but pathetic, I was the stupid girl who fell for Evan Mason and got my heart broken.

I quickly wiped my eyes when I heard the toilet door open up, Evan appeared in the reflection of the mirror behind me “what do you want?” I sniffed through tears looking back down at the sink.

“I shouldn't have said that, I was wrong to do so” he walked closer but stopped as he became closer.

“whatever Evan just fuck off and leave me alone” I cursed, I wasn't going to let him hurt me any more than he had done.

“you don't need to get nasty” he sighed “I don't want to fight with you if we're going to be working together a lot, just tell me are you pregnant?”

“Evan you left me so you don't get to tell me how to feel and don't worry I am not pregnant” I grabbed a heap of tissues as I patted the tears away trying not to make my mascara run.

“you pretty much told me I was emotionless, pathetic and just a fuck to you, you literally broke me Evan, you said I never cared about my family, do you know I don't want to cry or talk about what's happening? It's because I don't want to believe they are dead, I want to get that call and have them tell me it was a mistake, your friends kids called me Aunt and I almost broke down because I only ever expected my brother or sisters kids to call me that, but that isn't going to happen is it?” I shouted angrily.

I stepped closer to him hitting him in my chest, he didn't budge he just stood there staring at me.

“you want me to be honest with you and let you in Evan? I fucking love you and I have done since I first laid eyes on you in that restaurant, I never believed in falling in love because of how hurt I have been but you came along and made all these promises, I denied being in love with you because I knew your incapable of loving me back so I was going along with it to not freak you out, do you know how many times I wanted to tell you how I felt? I would have had 50 of your babies but I was happy to have none, I didn't care as long as we were together, you think I am the one who doesn't open up well why don't you take a long hard look in the mirror because you hide just as much from me”

I moved away from him throwing the tissues in the bin. I took a breath and looked back at Evan who was for the first time ever not talking, he just looked at me, his eyes didn't hold any emotion, his face was completely blank.

“you broke me Evan and I can barely breath without it hurting, all it does is hurt, I cant stop crying, I can't eat and I cant think without you being in my thoughts, but I get it now, I get how little I really did mean to you because if you had felt anything for me then you wouldn't have let me walk out of that building, you would of chased me and you didn't do that so I'm moving on now, I'm not going to be the pathetic girl who cries over the boy any more”

“so what are you going to do then?” he finally spoke, out of everything I had just told him that was all he had to say to me.

I was expecting something a little more different than that.

“I'm going to keep working and do what I do best, hide my feelings” I let out a laugh, I was standing in front of him, his suit was my favourite one he owned, I raked my eyes over his face and looked closely, his eyes looked tired, like he hadn't slept in days, his hair was messy and barely done, I wanted to kiss him, I wanted to have him hold me and tell me he loved me and wanted to be with me.

But he didn't, he instead cleared his throat “I have to get back, take care Emilia”

I stood in the women's toilets stunned. He just left and I was left standing alone, I gave myself a look in the mirror making sure I looked presentable enough for when I went back into the meeting.