What to Expect When Expecting in an Omegaverse: Minsung

2 December.

CW!! This chapter centers heavily around receiving an abortion- please be aware of this because this can be triggering for some!! Jisung also has a minor anxiety attack in the cab. This will be the last chapter where the topic of abortion is made a major plot point, and it won't be talked about as much from this point on.
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It's seems the second of December approaches so fast, it could've given Jisung whiplash. He's eight weeks and some days pregnant, almost too far along to receive the chemically-induced abortion. This type is done by taking a couple doses of a prescribed medication. If he'd waited any longer, he would've had to have the fetus -that's what it's considered at this point- surgically removed, and the experience would've been all the more traumatizing.

In the back of a cab and on the way to the clinic, he texts Felix and tells him he's on the way and to wish him luck. The freckled omega sends him back a slew of support and reassurances. Jisung thinks of texting Minho and letting him know too, but he's afraid of his reaction. He feels like the best case scenario would be Minho not replying...

As the car approaches the clinic, he feels his throat start to tighten with anxiety. His breathing shallows and his heart races. The omega sinks into a pit of panic and anxiety. What if he's doing the wrong thing? What if he can never have another baby again? What if he could learn to love this baby? His mind races, but eventually the car stops outside of the clinic and he has to force his heavy limbs out of the car and out onto the sidewalk.

His body feels numb and like it's on autopilot as he checks in for his appointment. He waits only a few minutes before they bring him back. They check his lungs and heart, and ask him a few questions. A different doctor from last time, another man, but this one is shorter and thin, comes in after he's been assessed and tells him they'd be doing the mandatory ultrasound.

Jisung goes through the motions of allowing the doctor to insert the probe and shift it around inside of him, while he's click, click, clicking on his mouse. He waits for him to ask, "Would you like to see?" This time he'll say yes. Sort of like a goodbye or a glimpse at what could've been.

"We can proceed with the termination if you're ready?" The doctor never asks about letting the omega see the screen and already starts to remove the probe. Jisung panics.

"Wait- I... is it possible for me to see? Before...?" The omega asks and the doctor seems to take pause, before he's nodding, almost solemnly. He re-inserts the probe and moves it around, seeming to have found what he was looking for faster this time around.

The doctor turns his screen around so that Jisung can see. The omega's heart drops. The image is so very obviously baby-shaped. He can't detach and pretend it's just a blob. It looks like a baby. It looks like his baby. Fuck. His eyes well up with tears.

"This is the fetus here, the surrounding is the amniotic sac, as well as your womb." He points out what Jisung could already see. "You can hear the heartbeat if you want, but..." The doctor offers as he sees Jisung start to become emotional. The omega hesitates for a beat but nods. The doctor clicks something on his computer and suddenly, there's a quick rhythmic beating. Almost too fast to sound human, but it still makes ice shoot through Jisung's veins.

"I- I'm sorry. I don't think I can do this." Jisung suddenly says, before he can even really think the decision through. All he knows is that he is so scared. Not of the pain, or the bleeding, but that he'd be losing the chance to see this through. He would never get to know what he's having, he'd never get to feel them kick, he'd never get to meet them. He is so terrified by the thoughts that he all but sprints out of the clinic once he's fully clothed again.