HER SISTER (18+) (GXG)

Sleepless Nights & Reassurance

It was around two in the morning when I managed to wake from my light sleep.

I had honestly struggled to even fall asleep in the first place, which was rare when I was in Mili's arms.

I felt satisfied with the point I had made to Lana—and the lesson that I had given to Mili just a couple of hours ago.

Yet I still felt unsettled.

It was more about my girlfriend's past crowding up my brain.

That's normal right?

I mean, I trust her and I know that her past is in the past.

But...

It doesn't stop me from wondering about all the different girls she's been with.

I found myself feeling anxious about accidentally running into one of them.

Or imagining Mili being intimate with so many other people before me.

I mean I've always known about her past.

I knew what I was signing up for, but I guess the reality of it never seemed to catch up to me until this whole Lana situation happened.

I slowly sat up from Mili's chest—carefully sliding out of the warm bed at an excruciatingly slow pace.

Mili was possibly the lightest sleeper I know, so who's to say my efforts were even worth it.

As soon as my slippers were on, I instinctively grabbed a throw blanket to wrap around my body.

I didn't exactly know why, but I just needed to be outside.

I needed a breath of fresh air to calm my chaotic thoughts and possibly dig me out of the spiral that I had put myself in.

The LA air wasn't warm, but it wasn't cold.

It was more in the middle—but still chilly enough to clutch the blanket to my body.

The city line was as bright as ever as I got seated on the cushioned outdoor couch.

I honestly never took in the view of LA from Mili's loft, but it seemed to be absolutely breathtaking.

And it managed to somewhat distract me from all my overanalyzing thoughts.

At least I was the only girl that she ever had over here.

That's what kept running on a loop in my head, hoping to battle my own inner monologue.

Time seemed to morph into nothingness as I calmly admired the city in front of me.

Seeing a city so big filled with people who had bigger problems than me seemed to soothe my own overthinking.

"Ati?"

Almost immediately, my eyes darted over to the open door that Mili was now closing behind her.

My girlfriend's tired eyes seemed to analyze me entirely as she walked over to me.

"I didn't mean to wake you," I said as she sat down beside me.

Mili's brows furrowed, "I wish you would've tried to wake me," she countered back as she lifted up my blanket slightly, "What's going on?" she questioned as she slid under the blanket with me.

I shook my head, "Nothing," I said, knowing that I really didn't want to have this conversation with her again.

It would only reveal more of her hook-ups that I didn't want to hear about.