HER SISTER (18+) (GXG)

Memories & Talks

MILI'S POV

Everything inside of me wanted to head to the nearest bar.

To not only drink but to possibly hook up with someone as well.

It wasn't just a thought.

It was a genuine contemplation.

Subconsciously, I wanted to ruin everything we had built.

Especially since it felt like I had already done that with my past.

But even as I contemplated throwing everything down the drain with Atiana—

I couldn't actually bring myself to do it. 

I couldn't physically do something like that to her. 

I also couldn't imagine touching someone else in that manner without visibly showing disgust on my face. 

She got me. 

And the irony is—

She doesn't want to be with me right now. 

And I know the Universe is laughing at me right now, knowing that this seemed to all come full circle. 

After hurting so many people and sleeping around so frequently, I don't know what I expected. 

Karma really is a bitch. 

In all honesty, I never saw myself as a committed type of person. 

Commitment was always off the table for me. 

It wasn't anything personal—nobody had hurt me and sent me into a spiral. 

I had just always been this way. 

Even when I was with Alyssa, I never felt one hundred percent there. 

Although, I tried to be. 

Even if she had never cheated on me, I think the relationship would've naturally come to an end anyway. 

And maybe that's why it was so easy to move on from it all. 

To not bring the situation to light. 

But with Atiana it was different. 

She was not someone I played about and we both knew that. 

Everyone knew that. 

I let out a deep sigh to myself as I took another hit from the lit blunt. 

No, I didn't go out to a bar or a club like I desperately wanted to. 

Instead, I did what any sane person would do—

I left town. 

Just for the rest of the weekend at least. 

I had come out to Big Bear at my family's cabin. 

And upon making it here at damn near one in the morning, I realized that I had subconsciously subjected myself to a punishment. 

I mean, Ati and I were all over this house. 

Literally and figuratively. 

We had so many memories here—

This was where everything officially began. 

And I'll never forget that. 

I glanced down at my ringing phone, noticing Nate—

Or Ryder's seventh missed call.