For the first time in two months, I woke up to seeing your name on my phone.
I was at my friend's house.
I had stayed the night with her and fell asleep on her couch.
We had gone out the night before.
But, I went to check my notifications on my phone like I always do when I wake up in the mornings, and for whatever reason, your name was at the top of that list.
You hadn't really crossed my mind in weeks.
So to say it was unexpected?
That is an understatement.
We haven't seen or spoken to each other in two months.
The last run in we had with each other didn't end up going very well to say the least.
I didn't think that I ever even crossed your mind.
Yet, for whatever reason, I did that day.
And I'd be lying if I said that seeing your name pop up on my phone again didn't cause every single one of the feelings I had been trying so desperately to forget about and let go of to arise all over again.
It's like that massive flood gate of unresolved or hidden feelings just got reopened.
But, there is nothing I could do to stop it from drowning me all over again.
I miss you.
And I wish I didn't.
