He doesn't understand, and he never does.
He completely broke who I was as a person.
He has no clue how many hours I spent waiting for him to respond, or seeing if he had even opened my Snapchats.
He doesn't know how many nights I sat in bed wondering why I wasn't good enough or how I could change myself to be good enough for him.
Nobody deserves that.
I haven't ever been that way for anyone.
Let alone a guy.
I don't know what made me think he was different or that maybe one day he would change.
I was tired of sitting around and waiting for him to do just that.
I don't want him to tell me he "understands" because he never will.
He has no idea how it feels to have someone you've been down for since the day you met treat you like you're their last priority.
He was the first person I wanted to talk to when I woke up and the last person I thought of before I'd fall asleep.
He knew I was going through some of the hardest times in my life and yet not once had he checked on me.
I hope he had a blast with his time treating me so badly because he lost a girl that would've done anything for him.
