OneShot Scenarios

Pet Loss Sucks

May 28, 2015-Our Family Nest's House-Mine and Karli's Room-9:45 P.M.

Hey diary. What's going on? Sorry for not writing in you since yesterday morning. After I finished that entry, the day quickly became one of the worst days of my life. Ken went to get my pet bird Bella out so she could be near us, and we just hear him say "she's gone", which left us in shock. I went in there, and there she was, not with us anymore.

I never talked about her before here I don't think, so let me talk about who she was. Bella had been with me before I lived with Our Family Nest, and I got her out when the house caught on fire back at home. I was surprised when the family said that I could still have her with me when I come to live with them, but I thanked them and I took her with me. She was one of the only things I had left of home. I had her for 11 going on 12 years at that point when I was about to move with them, so if I had to let go of her then, it was going to be hard, so thank goodness they let me keep her.

She was doing amazing until the end of April going into this month. She had been found asleep a ton near then, which I thought was a normal thing for her, because she had been that way before, but she turned out fine in the end. I just thought that she was going to get out of this soon and she would be back to normal, but... not this time unfortunately. I am heartbroken to say the least diary. Just like that, 12 years of live is gone, and I am left here really sad.

I called my best friend after church today, and we talked for a while. She had no idea about Bella's passing yesterday, so she thought everything was okay. I didn't tell her yesterday because she was working all day, so I didn't want to bother her with the sad news and have her worry about me. She found out about it today though. I'll give you a run down of what went down I told her what happened yesterday.

*back when they were chatting*

I was just showing my outfit for church to her, and she thought that I looked very beautiful, which I thanked her for. The dress that I had worn had pockets, and I had put my phone in one of them, and I show-cased that by taking my phone out and showing her. Without thinking I showed my lock screen, which has Bella on it, and she got curious about her.

"Hey, speaking of Bella, how has she been?" she had asked, smiling.

I had looked down on the floor, tears flooding my eyes as she asked the question. I didn't know how to tell her at first.

She picked up the vibe that I was not okay from that question. "Hannah, did something happen to her?"

At that point I had tears running down my face, and I sat down, crying softly. That made her realize what had happened.

"Oh Hannah... I'm so sorry," she had said gently. "Bella had an amazing 12 years of life with you, both at your old house and over there. She's in a better place now."

"I know..." I had said, wiping my eyes. "I just can't believe it. 12 years of my life with her is gone just like that."

"I know H. I wish I could hug you through the screen to comfort you."

"I wish you could too honestly. I've really needed one since this whole thing happened."

"When did she pass? If you want to say of course, no rush."

"She passed yesterday morning... Ken found her not with us anymore when he went to get her."

"Oh gosh... that must have been so heartbreaking to learn about."

"It was... I even saw her like that, which did not help at all."

"Wow. I'm again so sorry Hannah."

"It's okay... but can we talk about something else?"

"Of course."

*back to current time*

After I told her the news about Bella (well, she more found out about it through me crying), we just enjoyed each other's company and did our own thing. It was really nice to have her on the phone, so whenever I got emotional about Bella again, she could comfort me. Soon though she had to go, and when she hung up, I remember feeling so sad all over again. I know that this is normal for grieve, but I need to let it be normal for me.

After we got off the phone, I just chilled with the family the rest of the day. I ended up taking a nap on the couch with Karli beside me for a couple of hours, which was very nice. It was a really good distraction from all that happened, which was really good for me. It was just a really good afternoon for me despite everything that happened.

Even with me writing in here now, I'm feeling pretty good. I had an emotional moment earlier after dinner, but that was it. Sure, writing about when my best friend found out about Bella, I teared up, and a tiny tear was shed, but other than that, I'm okay. Writing about the events yesterday kind of helped me actually. Maybe I should do that more so I can help myself heal from this loss. I know it's gonna take a little bit to get over, but I have Our Family Nest to help me with it. They've been through this themselves, so they know how it is.

Well diary, I think I'm going to go get ready for bed. I'll write in you tomorrow. Good night.