Rhythmic Laws (Law School Series 2)

08

The tragedy of my emotions is that I can't force someone to understand it, I just have me. I understand them on my own but they couldn't.

Almost all of my friends are now half-drunk, some are already sleeping, while the others are still drinking.

Pareho kaming nakaupo ni Seb sa wooden bench ng aking balcony habang ang aming mga paa ay nakalusot sa railings, hinahayaang maramdaman ang lamig ng hangin mula sa kalagitnaan ng gabi.

"Since college," pagkkwento ko kay Seb ang tungkol sa relationship namin ni Dominic.

"And you knew? The cheating, the betrayal?" he looks at me, still holding the glass of alcohol.

"Everything,"

"And you chose to stay?"

"Mm-mm," I nod, swallowing the embarrassment of hearing these words from him. "The lying was the easy part..."

"At bakit?"

"I guess it's easier to pretend than to accept what is real," I look at him, his smile is in reverse and his eyes were teary.

"You must let go this self-sabotage,"

Then I laugh. "Wow, thanks Doc sa advise, wala nga si Janella para magdiagnose sa akin ngayon, pero dumating ka naman," I pinch his cheeks with my wet fingers from the moist of the glass.

Admittedly, I know I have a soft spot for Seb.

Bago ko pa mailapag ang baso ko sa upuan ay nagring ang phone ko. It was an Instagram direct message from a friend of friend.

She sent a picture of Dominic, he's in a club, while a girl is on his lap.

Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. Noong unang beses akong makatanggap ng ganitong text message, labis na nag-init ang katawan ko at hindi makapag-isip ng tama.

Pero ngayong nasanay na ako, lamig na lang ang nadarama ko dahil sa pagkakamanhid.

I look at Seb, lightly carry my lips to form a smile, "do you want to help me end it then?"

Maingat kaming lumabas ng unit na hindi napapansin ng mga kaibigan ko na umalis kaming dalawa. Pagkatapos ay pinindot namin ang floor papunta sa parking kung saan iniwan ni Seb and kaniyang scooter.

I was laughing how cute his scooter is. Luckily, he have a spare helmet. It's a black bike, comfortable enough to ride, and while he is driving, I feel safe on the road.

Sinundan lang namin ang maps sa direction ng address na ibinigay sa akin ng friend ko na iyon.

When we reached the club, sinabihan ko siya na hintayin niya na lang ako sa parking. Tinitigan ako ng bouncer sa pagpasok ko dahil ngayon ko lang narealize na nakasuot lang pala ako ng pajama.