It's complicated

Chapter 3: leah

It's been a week since the phone call with Ben. I haven't left the house in fact I haven't left my bed. Cole's tried to get me up but I don't budge. The only thing I've done this week is cry and drink. Bens texted me a few times apologising but I don't want his apology. I haven't been to training I can't bring myself to see everyone. The one thing I didn't want people to know about me they now know. I can feel myself slipping back into my old habits of not eating and drinking all day every day to numb the pain. A few of the girls have texted me checking up on me asking if I was ok but I don't want there pity.

I was lying in my bed drink in hand as I've done all day everyday this past week. My eyes stinging and all red from all the tears. I feel like shit. There was a knock at the door it's probably Cole coming to check up on me. I just want to be on my own so I ignore it but the knocking doesn't stop. I have no choice to answer it. I walk down the stairs gripping onto the banister for support before I open the door I take a look in the mirror I look like fucking shit. I open the door but it wasn't  cole it was her it was Leah. Why is she here?

Um.. hi leah what are u doing here I say barley above a whisper my voice all groggy from all the crying and lack of sleep.

I just wanted to check up on you. You haven't been to training all week the girls and I are worried about you.

I can't look at her I know if I look at her I'll start crying and won't be able to stop.

I'm fine Leah

It doesn't look like it lex. You reek of alcohol and you're still wearing the same clothes from the party.

I said I'm fine

If u say so lex can I at least come in and make u something to eat. When was the last time u ate?

Um.. I don't know

Lexi u need to eat she said with a serious tone

Come on let me in I'll make my special pasta with a secret sauce.

I just nod and move out the way still avoiding eye contacts with her.

Right lex u should go have a shower whilst I make u some food ok.

I nod and make my way upstairs I grab a towel and some clothes and head into the bathroom.
I've been sat on the floor just staring at the wall tears streaming down my face.

Lex are u ok in there you've Been quite a while Leah says is a soft voice with a hint of worry.

I don't respond I just continue staring at the wall unable to move.

Lex I'm coming in

Leah walked in and took a seat next to me on the floor. She pulled me into here chest and I couldn't take it anymore I broke down.

Lexi shh it's ok let it out Leah says to me her voice brings me comfort. I cling onto her tighter tears still streaming down my face.

I can't do it anymore Leah I just need it to stop I say struggling to get my words out.

Need what to stop Lex

Everything the pain the sadness I just need it to stop I can't deal with it anymore.

Leah doesn't say anything she just holds me tighter and places a small kiss on my forhead whilst stroking my hair.

After a while I feel my eyes start to flutter shut I don't fight it tho I haven't slept all week so it's probably for the best.

Leahs pov

I've just finished training Lexi hasn't been here all week. Me and the girls are staring to get worried about her. We have texted called but no response
I need to go check on her make sure she's ok or even alive still.