It had been a week since we got engaged and Mattheo had already broken it off. He did this because Alexander kissed me. He refuses to read my mind anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. Pansy and I are going to a party. So I got ready and when we got there, there was no music and Enzo just smirked at me as if saying that I should sing again. I just walk on to the stage. I decided that I would be.......Angry at Mattheo this time. I'm not just going to be sad. Even though I am extremely sad. So before I sang I made sure to get drunk. By now i could barely remember my name. So I got on the stage once again and started to sing.
(Play song here♡)
I'm historically heart broken Drowning in my own emotions One minute away from breaking down, down ,down I'm always leaving empty handed No one wants a heart that's damaged Only know a love that let's me down, down, down Oh staring contest with the walls I'm giving into my intrusive thoughts Oh what if I never find anybody to love Or i finally get the chance and i fuck it all up Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave Woah what if I get to heaven and it's not even real And I die before telling ya how I really feel Cause it feels like hell and I just cant help but think That maybe loves not for me If you don't look to closely You cant even tell I'm lonely Even though it keeps me up at night, night, night I try to keep myself distracted But I got all these awful habits of listening to the voices in my mind, mind, mind Oh staring contest with the walls I'm giving in to my intrusive thoughts oh What if I never find anybody to love Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to go What if I get to heaven and its not even real And I die before telling you how I really feel And I can't help but think Maybe loves not for me if you don't look to closely you can't even tell I'm lonely Even though it keeps me up at night, night, night I try to keep myself distracted But I got all these awful habits of listening to the voices in my mind, mind, mind Oh staring contest with the walls oh What if I never find anybody to love Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave What if I get to heaven and its not even real And I die before telling you how I really feel Cause it feels like hell And I can't help but think What if loves not for me oh Maybe loves not for me ohh Maybe loves not for me Maybe loves not for me For me, for me, for me Maybe loves not for me
(Sorry if the lyrics and song don't match up.
Before I walk off stage I yell into the microphone "Mattheo I still love you I love YOU I HATE Alexander you know that!" I walk off stage and go to the Chamber of Secrets. I had brought a box of stuff and decided that I would make it more cozy.
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I sat and read while listening to music. Then I heard someone come down to the entrance. I heard a snake? Wait...no it's just Nagini. Nagini Is honestly just so sweet.
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ Ok so to marthenia13 I just want to say sorry and thxx for support I would not have published this if it weren't for you so thxx
