Please, Remember The Bench (BY: Book 3)

You Promised

Stef's POV

After a day at work and discovering that my women and children shelter was in a worst state that I thought, I was exhausted.

I feel a bit depressed because I want to keep that shelter open so badly, it's so important that it stays available for everyone who need it and I admit that, with Kamaya, it's the only thing that is keeping me saine. It's the fact that I can go to work and really help people every day, that makes it worth it to get up in the morning and get ready. I mean Kamaya is too, but I know she can't be the only reason, I can't put that on her young shoulders, so I need this thing to keep working out.

In the meantime, I'm glad that my baby got to spend some time with her other mother today. I know she misses Lena every day, and that when she's here, she's her whole world.

Now, they're both home, and after we had dinner and spend some time the three of us in front of the TV, it was time for our daughter to go to bed, and it was time for me and Lena to have our time together as well, to talk, and maybe try to fix a few things.

"So... how was your day?" Lena asks as she's coming back from the bathroom, as she's drying her beautiful curls, thing that I've always loved watching.

"Well... could have been better. The shelter is in a very bad position. I'm trying to get it through this rough path, but I don't have much help, I mean there's Mark, but only the both of us can do so much, you know." I explain as Lena sat next to me, in her pajama and I can feel the smell of her shampoo get to me, for I love it so much.

"I know... but if there's someone that can get the shelter to make it, it's you." she says smiling, and kind of ending the conversation on this particular topic. And that yes, bothers me a lot, because I need to talk about it, I need to get my frustration out, and I need her to listen to me, and pay attention, because that's how we always worked. That's how we can think more clearly, we talk to each other, and discuss things so that the next day, we have a better picture, but I guess that thing is over as well.

"How was your day?" I end up asking, for I don't want to talk about this specifically, we need to talk about us in priority, even though right now, I feel like we are trying to avoid this very discussion.

"Oh, it was so great. I mean I love spending time with Kamaya, she actually has a lot of good conversations, I like it very much. Besides, well... she admited that... hum... she hears you cry sometimes, Stef." she says, as at this I feel immediately guilty for I hate more than anything that my little girl have seen me like this, and I will take care of it, and I will probably have to talk about it with her as well, because I don't want her to worry or anything like that.

"I... hum..." I stutter for in the meantime, I'm embarrassed, because I'm supposed to take care of Kamaya while Lena is away, and obviously, I'm not doing a very good job.

"Honey, it's okay, it happens. I know you get sad sometimes. And well... that you miss me... But that's why I'm here. To make up for those moments that we don't spend together. I'm here for you, my love. I don't ever want you to think that I don't love you, because I do, you're my wife Stef." she says, bringing tears into my eyes for I'm so scared that one day she'll just stop loving me...

"I love you too..." I whisper, trying to control my voice as she smiles at me so tenderly that I'm completely melting.

"I know... and well, it was hard not to touch your naked body last night... I mean, it's been a while, babe..." she utters as she gets closer to me, and I'm struggling to breath as my heart is going out of control all of the sudden.

"Lena..." I say, trying to focus a little, because we desperately need to talk, we really, really need to as Lena slides her hand up my arm to reach my neck and my skin is becoming so damn hot right now.