Please, Remember The Bench (BY: Book 3)

Don't Do This To Me

A month later

Lena's POV

Not even a month after talking about it, here we are, me, Stef and Kamaya into our old new house... God does it feel good to be back here...

There are still boxes everywhere since it's only tonight that we're going to sleep for the first time here. There's just Kamaya's room that is mostly finished, we will just need to take her pick up some decorations, but her boxes are unpacked unlike ours.

Now here comes the time to decide in what room we are going to sleep. We already bought double beds for all the bedrooms so that is not an issue, but I'm pretty sure Stef still doesn't feel comfortable sleeping next to me every night... but I also know that she doesn't dare telling me because she doesn't want to hurt my feelings... which in a way is better than her throwing it in my face, so I appreciate the gesture.

Since that famous night where I completely lost control myself by losing my towel TWICE in front of her, we didn't talk about it. We acted like nothing happened. Yet it did happen, I saw the way she looked at me, and that was not a neutral way of looking at another woman... the desire in her eyes was there, I could recognize it instantly, no matter if she recognized it herself or not...

Since then, I've been dreaming of making love with her again. It had calm down, since she was so rejecting of me, but now... oh my God, now it's like an inferno is burning inside of me each time that I think about her... and I think about her a lot, so it doesn't help. I guess it awaken something in my body that she just stared at me like that, and now I struggle at keeping control of it. Sometimes I find myself looking a bit too intensely at her ass, or at her breasts, or just when she gets out of the shower, and I dump into her.... God it's torture not to be able to do anything to that sexy ass woman.

"Stef... so I was thinking. You should take that room... it was ours before and we could put it in the same way it was when we lived here so that maybe it can help your memory and I'll... I'll sleep in the room right next to that one. I mean just like in the other house, you know... The shower is ours, Kamaya as her own and... voila." I say as I could tell she got instantly awkward.

"Are you sure? I mean, I guess you feel better in this room so I... I would feel bad to kick you out of it, Lena..." she says as I smile at her for, she had no idea.

"Stef... honestly? I won't feel good in that room without you in my bed... I... I'm not saying that to make you feel uncomfortable... it's just that I... I just want us to be honest with each other." I say sincerely.

"Oh... no, I... I get it... sorry..." she says as I approach her.

"No need to be sorry. It's okay, it will take as long as it need to take. I know it still not easy for you..." I say for I know that she still struggles... sometimes I see that expression on her face, when she's like thinking very hard, and I know that in those moment she's desperately trying to remember...

"Thank you for understanding..." she says, softly smiling.

"No problem. And... I'll try not to forget my pajama this time..." I say, for I was dying to see her reaction on that topic, like she could comment and all, I really wouldn't mind.

"Oh... well you were... I mean you are... I mean you look great, really.... really great, I... Not that I looked... I mean... well... maybe a little, but... I.... I... I'm gonna stop talking now..." she stutters, while blushing deeply and God was that cute and quite flattering as well.

"Stef, it's okay. And... well, you can look. It's yours after all..." I say very smoothly, before I just turn around, not letting her the time to say one more thing and I just walk away, very satisfy of myself.