My Diary

16-2-2024

Dear diary,

Today was boring. I got up late, I watched tv. Then I wasn't allowed to watch tv anymore so I went upstairs and I watched youtube on my laptop.

Only a few things happened.

I started a new book. It's about my shifting journey. I already had 4 experiences and I wrote all four of them in that book. So if you're interested...

Also, this morning, my dad and sister went away and my mother was already gone, so I took some lucifers and some candles and I started playing with fire. I accidentally hurt myself a few times. But I'm okay.

I also looked up why I am so tired all the time. It could be cancer, depression, stress, anxiety, insomnia, diabetes, a heart disease and a lot more things. 

When I asked my parents to be examined a few weeks ago, they said no. When I kept saying that I think that somethings wrong with me, my father said that I am just like my grandma.

But how do you explain my symptoms to an adult? 

My heart is so tired.

So tired from everything. From friends, family, life.

I should stop this. I have a good life.

My book almost got promoted

I am playing the selections in basketball

I played the selections with gymnastics when I was younger

My life is actually succesfull, now that I look back. But don't get me started on all the wrong things.

It just feels wrong to just be here. 

Anyways, I am gonna go. I think that I am going to right 365 chapters in this book. I'll start a new book when 2025 starts.

Goodnight