My Diary

I'M BACKKKKKK

Dear diary,

I AM FINALLY BACK!! Okay so I have my laptop back for a while now, but I may or may not have forgotten my password and I lost the notebook it was in... BUT I FOUND IT!!!

First of all, I wanna say sorry for being absent for so long! So many things happened so this will be a long chapter!

First of all, I don't think the laptop I got back is my laptop. I think I got back one of those laptops you can borrow. Anyway! I have those suspicions because I don't have to put my password in to open my laptop, one app that was 100% on my laptop disappeared. I am not logged in on any sites anymore and I lost lots of data.

Kind of mad about that but I'll survive!

Where tf do I start woah.

Okay so, let's talk about school first!

We had the forest run but then it was canceled because it was raining really really hard, so that made me so happy! And since I have been away I also had a testweek. Which didn't really go that well...

First, we had Dutch. That went alright! It could've been better of course but it is still a really good mark! I had a 7,0. Then the day after, we had the Math test and the History test. They both were shit. I thought I was good at History after I got that 8,5! But no. I got a really bad mark. A 4,8. Which might be okay for some of you I don't know and sorry if I am yapping too much abt something that would be really good for you guys, but for me, this is just not so good.

Math went as bad as always. I had a 4,4! But then after we got the test back, I saw what mistakes I made. I made the most sloppy mistakes ever. Here are some examples:

- I turned the - into a + and the other way around
- I forgot to draw a sketch
- I forgot to write down the answer
- I forgot that somewhere wasn't a solution but I still solved it

Things like that. I found out that if I hadn't made all those mistakes, I would've had a 7,3! So that is kind of a bummer but I'll do better next time.

Then we had a weekend, and after we had English and Biology, and BIOLOGY WENT SO WELL AAAHHHH!! Okay, so for the past two years, I was REALLY bad at biology! I often got insufficients and I just didn't understand it, but now I got a 7,3!! I am so happy!!

For English, we had to write a speech, and we had to present that speech in a few weeks, so no mark back yet.

The last five subjects were really bad I think-

Geography: 5,2
Physics: 4,4
Chemistry: 4,9
German: 5,7
French: 6,3

French and German were at least a sufficient.

What irritated me the most, is that my whole class said that they thought it went super bad (Chemistry and Physics) but they still got a sufficient. And I hate that. Because that makes me feel so stupid. I actually did bad and they THOUGHT THEY DID BAD?! SHUT UP

Okay so at Chemistry I did have a cute interaction with Sebastian.

We got our tests back and everyone was talking but I was not close to any of my friends so I just sat silent and I was writing some random shit down in my notebook. Sebastian was sitting in the row in front of me btw. Suddenly he turns around and asks me: "Wat had jij voor Scheikunde?" (What did you have for Chemistry?) I smile and while this interaction happens we js make eye contact the whole time, and then I just said. "Een 4,9." (A 4,9.) And I also kind of laugh at it while I say it. He just says: "Oh.." Cuz he couldn't say anything like: "Good job" or shit.

I then just ask him. "Wat had jij?" (What did you have?) And he says: "6,0." And I say. "Lekker!" (Tasty! OMG PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE! IN THE NETHERLANDS IF SOMETHING GOES WELL WE OFTEN SAY 'Lekker!' WHICH TRANSLATES TO TASTY IT IS NORMAL I SWEAR) And when I said that he smiled and maybe I imagined his cheeks turning a little red but I ain't sure!

Okay, so that kind of is what happened with school.

WE GOT A NEW SEATING PLAN

I AM SITTING NEXT TO GARFIELD

Remember? Hunter his best friend?

Okay so apparently Garfield likes me. And I hate that.

Garfield is really nice and shit and he is okay, but I just don't like him like that. And you know what the worst thing is? Hunter is supporting him with it. So I guess Hunter doesn't like me anymore!

During an s-hour, we had a teacher who pronounced Hunter his name weirdly, and my name and Hunter his name are very similar (real names, not Aurora and Hunter.) Anyway, I look back at him and he looks at me and I nod at him to say like: "Tell her your goddamn name she is asking for you, my name has already been dumbass." I didn't say that tho.

He and I held eye contact for a solid five seconds before he understood it was him. Nice! By the way, all this happened while Garfield had a crush on me.

Meanwhile, Isla is telling me that every time she looks if Sebastian is looking at me, he IS. According to her he always looks at me.

And the past four breaks I am always talking with my friends and then suddenly half the boys looked at me either after someone said something or while someone was talking. At least they know my name! Let's stay positive. To be fair I am okay with them talking about me sometimes. But not every break! This makes me so aware of everything I do! It's like I have to watch every step I take!

Oh, and something weird happened. I was js normally liking the videos on TikTok from my friends. AND I FORGOT THAT I APPARENTLY FOLLOW GARFIELD- I just liked his video. Then I went to my other account AND THE SAME HAPPENED- I SWEAR IT WASN'T ON PURPOSE!

That was my short rant abt boys! What do you guys think??

This is one of the parts I am going to post today! I'll see you guys soon again!! I love you guys so muchh!! <333