My Diary

2-3-2024

Dear diary,

I felt pretty today! And I also put on another mindset.

There is no failure. You either win or learn.

Also, I promised myself that every time I have three sufficients in a row, I am allowed to buy a book! I love reading. It is like disappearing into another world, kinda like shifting but YOU ONLY NEED YOUR MIND AND IT WORKS EVERY TIME.

In other words.

No.

I didn't shift.

I will tonight though (I hope).

I bought new clothes and when I looked into the mirror I was like. Wait, I don't look bad!

Okay I love myself today, I don't even know why.

Oh and I was today years old when I found out that ofc means oh fucking course. That took me a hot while.

And I also like to present, a friend that ghosted me and now pretends like there is nothing wrong. Let's call her, Anna. Not her real name.

So Anna, she was nice and all. I was her friend, everyone was jealous, saying that I basically tamed her. 

First of all, what the fuck.

Second of all, I am flattered, I guess.

Now we went to different classes, but still she was only nice to me. (This is also the girl that I got too attached with.)

The day I wrote the upper part in between the brackets in my diary, she wasn't talking to me. BECAUSE SHE FUCKING GHOSTED ME.

Now I started talking to her again. A few days ago I didn't feel so good in school and then I said: "I need a hug." And she hugged me without hesitation. My friends were shocked cuz they also asked but they all got skipped. Not me.

Now if I drop her, our whole friend group will literally fall apart. Just like that other friend that spilled the tea in front of two boys in our class. Also Anna is one of my best friends.

BUT MY OTHER FRIEND, (from primary school). She isn't fucking talking to me. Only on birthdays and sometimes on New Years or Christmas or sum. She was my best friend for 8 FUCKING YEARS.

Also yes. The mood changes the whole time because a few cramps decided to show up. TMI? I am sorry. 

Also that best friend, let's call her Maddie, she isn't telling me anything. I don't know why. 

She and another friend of mine went to a different high school after primary school. That one friend, she and I basketball together but she ignores me almost all of the time! Instead she went to one of the other teammates who CONSTANTLY makes fun of me.

I want to drop a glass on her foot so it will ✨fling✨ into her toes. The one that makes fun of me I mean.

The rest can actually suck it. 

Also I don't really know if I still want to play in the selections. I told myself yes but- Nevermind.

IT'S ABOUT DRIVE
IT'S ABOUT POWER
WE STAY HUNGRY
WE DEVOUR

Sorry you had to read that. I don't know where that came from.

Anywayyyy I gotta go shift!! Love you guys!! <33