Dear diary,
I am so sorry for leaving you all behind. I know that I promised more updates but I just can't bring myself to write.
I do owe you guys an explanation. The reason I haven't been updating is because I am in a really bad place, mentally. I have had multiple mental breakdowns and I stopped eating again. Because of this, I haven't had the energy to do anything. I study for tests at the last minute, and I have been sick for 7 days in the past two weeks, which, last year would be really like me, but this year it isn't. I was genuinely becoming better but then I relapsed.
It also doesn't help that my friends are also mentally unstable. I love them so much that I sometimes forget to love myself. I keep giving pieces away of myself to them and I just feel empty inside.
There are times when I am forced to eat. That doesn't help, since I spend the rest of the night crying about my BMI.
My friends told me that I am not fat. And that might be the truth. But I still feel fat. Nothing can change that.
What I will be doing in the upcoming few weeks, is stop updating. It's nothing new, but I just need a break. During those few weeks, I will still sometimes place an announcement on my page, so make sure to follow me or check that out sometimes.
During those few weeks, I will hold a list, in my notes app, with all the things I need to tell you guys about. For example that fight between Steven and Max I told you about. That will be put on the list.
When I feel better, an school isn't that time-consuming anymore, I will take that list, and upload. A lot. So I will be back, but I just don't know how much time it would take.
I will take a complete break from Wattpad. Not read, nor upload, so if I have been reading your story, I will disappear from the comment section because I just need to distance myself a little.
Again, I am sorry for leaving you guys behind with that little information. Please make sure you guys eat three meals a day and sleep regularly. Not like I do.
I love you guys so much and thank you for being here with me.
-N
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